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candle to light up the darkness

2011-05-04T22:21:00.001+08:00

its been two years.

she said: "wow!"

2011-04-20T23:23:00.002+08:00

zaman mengajar 20 hours per week bakal bermula 2, 3 bulan lagi. adakah rambut akan makin menggugur? adakah kedutan di muka akan semakin jelas? adakah level kegarangan berada di tahap baru? aku berazam, semester baru ni aku akan buat sehabis baik! :)

sekarang musim jadi pengawas peperiksaan dan penanda kertas jawapan. aku kena siapkan sebelum minggu depan. itu juga janji pada diri sendiri. aku akan pastikan ia selesai! sekarang mahu belajar cara mengajar yang berkesan. rupanya, mengajar ni pun kena ada bakat. yang tak ada bakat, kenalah cari jalan untuk mengasah bakat. aku dah penat mengajar secara tak berbakat ni. mungkin aku boleh mintak nasihat dari fazri dan shabri. hurm...

she said: "pulut ayam dan ladang burung unta"

2010-05-23T02:28:00.003+08:00

sekarang tengah minggu exam dekat mana-mana poli pun termasuklah poli gua. students memang tengah tertekan. kalau member provoke sikit pun dan boleh bertumbuk. itu termasuklah students gua. mungkin masih terbawa-bawa perangai budak-budak sekolah yang over sensitive dan nak tunjuk hero. sebab post dekat facebook pun boleh jadi isu besar. bila ingat-ingat balik time gua study dekat poly dulu, memang kurang godaan cyber sebab gua takde access internet dekat rumah. paling menggoda pun game match gambar yang kalau main memang tak boleh berhenti tu ataupun game-game yang ada dekat pc imi.

kalau tension tak tentu arah, satu rumah pergi teluk cempedak untuk melepas tekanan sambil scouting g g. tengok laut memang boleh mendamaikan jiwa. ataupun bila dah bosan dengan teluk cempedak, kami pergi esplanade pula sambil tengok mat rempit memperbodohkan diri. kadang-kadang kami tengok midnight. ya, mungkin aktiviti itu sesuai untuk student yang bukan duduk asrama. macam gua.

tapi time gua duduk asrama pun tak kurang juga seronoknya. tido memang cukup saja sebab gap antara kelas gua boleh balik bilik and dozed off. kemudian boleh pergi bilik orang lain cari makanan dan bergossip. group assignments pun senang nak buat sebab semua classmates duduk asrama. malam-malam boleh buat party maggi. pendek kata, experience duduk kamsis poli memang pengalaman duduk asrama yang paling best bagi gua walaupun kamsis tu old school, banyak cerita hantu dan sebagainya.

kawan-kawan poli pula memang tak sama dengan kawan-kawan u. kawan-kawan poli yang gua kenal time belajar dulu memang mempunyai semangat setiakawan yang tinggi. kalau dah rapat, memang macam adik beradik. sikap tolong menolong (termasuklah tolong sign attendance dan tolong bagi pinjam assignments yang dah siap :P) memang menebal. kalau susah, memang kawan-kawan ni sentiasa ada nak back up kita.

masuk u, lain sikit lah. sebab masing-masing dah ada klik masing-masing dari matrik la apa la. jadi setiakawan tu boleh -boleh tahan aja. simbiosis bak kata orang. tapi gua tak ambik pusing sangat semua tu asal tak menyusahkan gua. gua tetap sayang kawan-kawan gua tak kira lah kawan poli ke kawan u ke kawan sekolah ke atau mana-mana kawan-kawan gua yang bukan dalam kategori yang disebutkan.

benda-benda yang makan dalam tu ada je. sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit tapi takde la pulak gua dengar kawan-kawan gua gaduh sampai bertumbuk dengan gang sendiri. mungkin ada tapi tak sampai ke pengetahuan gua. yang paling teruk pun gua gaduh dengan member, masing-masing kasi silent treatment. lama-lama ok sendiri je bila ada pihak mengalah.

berkawan ni kenalah ada toleransi. kalau kita je nak menang, kita je yang best sampai ke sudah la tak kemana. itu yang sebab post dekat facebook pun boleh jadi bertumbuk. gua memang tak paham dengan student-student baya adik-adik gua ni. diorang ni, berpikir ke tidak ye sebenarnya? lain macam betul attitude masing-masing...

she said:"penjawat awam"

2010-04-23T00:30:00.003+08:00

amacam? sopan tak posing gua?

she said: "btn- bukit sagu"

2010-04-13T23:27:00.005+08:00

it is harum manis season again now in perlis. you will crave for its sweet smell and heavenly taste once you've tasted it. some people said that it is also taste so good when you eat it with pulut though i prefer it on its own. it is totally worth the price you pay.

last friday, i brought a bag full of it to seremban. we got high drinking cold, fresh mango juice right from the fruit processor for the entire weekend. you wont believe how good it felt especially with the current hot, sticky weather. and yes, we celebrated gerb's 20th birthday too on sunday. together with azhan. he came over for lunch and stayed until its almost dark. :)

i spent this 2 weeks busying myself marking all the quizzes and assignments and the lab exercise. i'm could not grasp whats lacking in my teaching. the kids still could not comprehend the questions correctly and for sure will answer straightly wrong. and i'm trying to keep my patience. but sometimes they seems to forget who am i to them. they forget that they are not a school kids anymore. and i am not going to spoon-fed them even though it will makes me their less-favorite. every time i started the class, i will try to motivate them to practice more because programming is not something you learnt from reading. its more like math, the more you practice the more you familiar with it. i told them, i do stuck too. and i cant be considered as a good programmer. i still have a lot to learn. but one thing that makes me differed from them is that i enjoy doing programming while they find it as a burden. you'll get difficulty when you have such a mindset. but still, there are few students who have a good potential. i will try to nurture more. :)

tomorrow, i'm going to kuantan. i missed the place so much like i couldn't believe i'm going back to the place where it all started. kuantan, here i come!!!

fat. and ugly. me.

2010-04-08T21:36:00.000+08:00

There is a place. Like no place on Earth. A land full of wonder, mystery, and danger! Some say to survive it: You need to be as mad as a hatter.

2010-03-13T23:18:00.002+08:00

The Mad Hatter: Have I gone mad?
[Alice checks Hatter's temperature]
Alice Kingsley: I'm afraid so. You're entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are.

are you?

she said: "mari berkawat!"

2010-02-24T14:42:00.005+08:00

its hard to believe that the end of the month is approaching again. the only difference this time is that i have to be more careful with my finance since there will be no payday on the 25th as usual since all the government servant get early payday this month. thanks to c.n.y...

i have premium rapidshare account now so my free time currently is filled with watching all the movies and guess what, i've finished watching all the episodes of gossip girls. don't give me that look, i like to see all the complex characters in it. truth never lies, being rich does not mean everything is perfect. i'm glad i have just enough to survive my life. i don't dream of having extravaganza lifestyle like blair waldorf or serena van der woodsen and i'm more than grateful with the family i'm born into. i wish i could copycat the planning of my parent made for us but i guess everyone have their own path. like now, did i ever dreamt of working so far away from home? and being academic? hell no, but this is the path i choose when i was asked to choose in a crossroad while ago.

the latest course i've been to was the training camp for robot soccer. at first i thought, its totally not my thing. but i was wrong. obviously, it was fun to work with. but wait, did you know anything about robot soccer? perhaps you can check it here. the camp was the best and i learnt hell lot of new things especially on calibration part so that the robots are all in a position where it can be detected perfectly by the camera. we have two trainers from UK and some facilitators from UKM to guide us through out the camp. and i'm hoping the second training will be much more fun.

okay, enough about robot soccer. today is the first day i conducted my polibriged class. today we have kawad kaki. no, i'm not the one whose shouting the command. we have ex-plkn among the students so we just ask them to command the troops under the hot sun. no joking, the evening was totally hot i felt like it burnt crisp my skin. :) kesian kat student but things have to be done. sorry guys, next week we'll have to go though the sufferance again.

super troopers

and my sufferance started again...

she said: "angel..."

2010-01-14T23:45:00.003+08:00

there is glass of water with panadol soluble dissolving in it on my table. i had a flu that attack me randomly at any time of the day. and i'm supposed to finish this semester schedule by tonight. who said its easy to become 'pensyarah politeknik'?

i know i've been fourteen days late but people, happy new year 2010! is it okay if i say that i feel a little bit sad moving into new year? i know nothing much i can brag about 2009 except that i have overcome my toilet bowl syndrome by bravely moving to the northest part of malaysia and having to leave behind the job i like but dont forget, i get the whole new experience as academic too.

to be honest, its not a bad year and i'm friggin sad to wave it goodbye even though i think i waste hell lot of cash for buying me flight tickets but did not board it. what is the curse on earth i have when every time i bought a flight tickets for some weekends, the next day there came the memos saying i need to attend this seminar and that seminar and thats mean i couldn't board my flight because i need to be there at the very next day. grrrrr!

i also break a promise i made to myself, yeah that once a year must-go-to-concert thing. i am not going to able to do it this year since i find myself quietly felt guilty for ever thinking to go to concert while i am suppose to save every penny i have in the current situation. well yeah, there's so much more stuff to do to enjoy myself other than going to concert right? even if its imogen heap's. ;)

the students will start their class this coming monday. nervous. yes. no. yes. i have to teach 3 classes and of course, i got to teach my favorite subjects. heee! see, wishes granted. and i moved my workstation too. not completely move but i already use it for the whole week. its caused some stir in the office but i think its free country and the partition itself is free so why bother. i will not put a second thought to my action since i think i deserve not to be put in the middle of tables like some intership students. i deserved a proper workstation, full stop!

she said: "yeah yeah yeahs in january anyone?"

2009-11-01T01:38:00.005+08:00

its very hard to get me on my chair and start writing for this blog of mine. i get distracted easily and country story on facebook is more fun than typing about how i spent my weekends and all. and especially when i know that blog is no longer my favorite medium to express whatever i want.

my life is very abnormal these few weeks. i spent 3 weeks away from perlis again for the second time and yes, for another course in cyberjaya. i prefer to call it a camp because it feels like one. it was another effort from mdec under the flag of train-the-trainer program for game modding. my group choose to do mod on left 4 dead, a game where you have to shoot the zombies in order to escape and get rescued. lots of blood and it is damn violence but still its really good experience for me since i never used maya and hammer before and i often compare it with 3-matic eventhough its far from similar. i kept on using shortcut i familiar with 3-matic on maya but hell, i survived the 3 weeks. to recap, we learned how to use maya to make custom prop used in our mod, how to make a facemap for the texture used for the props, some art of level designing (though i'm not involve in that one) using hammer and suchs. and during the course, i even met casey nolan who was once also a modder for the first fps game i ever played, duke nukem 3D back when i was 15. yeah, i never realized i was once an fps gamer.

this whole game modding thing is totally useful for anyone who's interested to start in game development. the process is not as complex as developing your own game from the scratch. all you need is a creative way of thinking and visualizing. and for now, i lack of both so i guess i stick with programming for a while. why you need to be creative? because you dont want to create a mod that has already been created. and of course, originality is more appreciated. but yeah, its your mod so do whatever you like.

the process begin with you start thinking about the gameplay, the concept and scope of your mod. then, you can sketch a map of the location where your mod take place. for our group, we try alamanda. the map will continue changing as we develop them in hammer. hammer is tool used to interface with source game engine used for left 4 dead. its where you build the buildings, put in the custom props and custom textures you created, put in lighting and ambience effect and so on so on. when the whole thing is finished, you can play your map on left 4 dead. so hell yeah, i've complete all the campaign for the left 4 dead and 2 mods for these 3 weeks. dont ask did i actually go for a course or to play game because thats how its work. you cant mod if you dont dig into the game. for me, its like learning how to play music. you can choose to study the notes or you can choose to learn by ear. i prefer the later. i am already lazy to study the mechanics of the game and all theoritically but i can do it by observing. right?

okay, enough about game mod. my uncle who's been warded in icu for his heart, liver and kidney failure now has getting stable and he's been transferred to hospital selayang. thinking about him made feel grateful. Alhamdulillah, i will try to keep my health as good as possible. its really made me realize how small we are as human. not that i dont realize previously, but you see we tend to forget things and always drifted away in the so-call benda-benda keduniaan. and you, please take care your health. put away that burning ciggarettes. and i'm totally not kidding about this. i never been a supporter for no-smoking campaign but after what happen to my uncle, count me in. if you're smoker and doesn't want to stop, i think it would be better if you stop quickly than hurting yourself silently in fashionably slow and painfully way. ;(

dan kerul, tahniah dengan pencapaian tour kamu dan rakan-rakan kamu. Idup TTS!

she said: "the lullaby..."

2009-10-04T21:24:00.002+08:00

the weekend is totally hectic. yeah, i wont suffer this much if i did early preparation. i'm a procrastinator, remember? so yes, it serve me right. i'm working my best to prepare the so called FRP completed with the student marks and everything. if there are anymore flaws, i couldn't help but to think that as a human, we could overlook anything. not that i'm not afraid of this 'audit' stuff, its a really huge deal okay to be messed with but i'm exhausted. i could not focus on doing it anymore. i just want my tomorrow to be as normal as it can. yeah, still according to my plan there will be two lab tests that i'm going to conduct tomorrow. its just a simple one, i doubt the students have any problem. not that underestimate them, but i firmly believe that some will have it though.

my only distraction is the twilight saga series. been reading the breaking down twice now. the last time i read it was during my second visit to belgie last march where siti, my ex-collegue lent me the book to cure my boredom at night. the vampir-y bite doesn't have any effect on me that time even though the scenery there was so vampir-ic during winter. you can imagine the cold dark night where the shadows of the huge trees at the park can be so scary, none of it ever made me felt the craving for more edward nor bella. but yet, the non-stop rain outside my window now is totally make me drown into the mood. i always have thing with the rain. rain always bring me good memories no matter how much some people hated the wetness of it. for me, rain bring so much good stuff. you sleep better with the sound of rain. and yes, you will enjoy the old biscuits you wont eat if its not because of the rain made you felt so hungry you even dig deeper into the container. no, i'm not eating now.

the paddy field is green again. i love the sights but i hate the loneliness and the boredom every time i saw the greening openings . i have jack's mannequin now on my playlist. i stumbled upon them while browsing step's webbie. and yes, they suit my mood now. i'm miss home and yes i miss some scents. i miss the whole one week noise at home. and i'm sure the rest of my sibling is feeling the same way now...

she said: "gaji bila masuk weh?"

2009-09-30T21:34:00.004+08:00

raya dah abis. cuti panjang gua pun dah abis. sekarang masa untuk jadi tunggang langgang dengan kerja-kerja tertangguh yang menunggu untuk disiapkan plak. tapi, sejak gua tau main country story kat facebook, azam tinggal azam. yang ada hanyalah syik yang asek melangut dengan laptop dengan mulut ternganga tunggu crop gua untuk diharvest atau asek siram sayur sendiri mahupun sayur orang lain sebab sayur sendiri lambat nau nak membesar. ada time jadi jahat sikit, gua pergi amik crops orang lain pastu jual kat market. ishk, keji!

ah iye, kalau korang ada masa bulan november ni, meh le datang taman budaya kl. theater club yang adik aku join tu buat performance kat sana 17 & 18 november. untuk keterangan yang lebih lanjut, sila tengok sini dan sini.

she said: "laksa buyongggg laksa buyongg!"

2009-09-01T18:44:00.004+08:00

ah, lamanya tak update blog. just plain lazy. oh ye, walaupun dah masuk minggu ke-2 berpuasa, gua masih lagi ingin mengambil kesempatan ni untuk wish selamat menjalankan ibadah puasa kepada kawan-kawan yang gua tak sempat layangkan sms barang sepatah dua. mana yang sempat, gua dah send. mana yang tak sempat, alah jangan nak cari pasal untuk buat muka emo dengan gua. bercerita tentang puasa, memang puasa tahun ni gua hatkor. setakat travelling 10 jam tiap-tiap weekend tu dah macam perkara biasa. apa kes tiap-tiap minggu balik kampung. bukan apa, sebabnya ada long weekend. dari gua tatau nak buat apa kat perlis ni, baik gua balik. dapat jugak jumpa orang-orang yang tersayang. ehem!

mama plak time anak-anak dia balik, memang dia masak kaw-kaw punya. lauk yang rare macam gulai itik pun ada. mak gua punya gulai, tak payah cerita la. memang kuning kuku kalau makan. pokek dan menjilat jari. nak-nak bulan puasa ni, semua benda dia masak gua balun semacam je. weekend lepas, gua pergi johor. nak merasa mak sana punya masakan pulak. awww! pukul 1 pagi pun gua bley blasah bakso lagi. bila diowang tengok gua beriya membelasah bakso, apalagi satu family la join gua membelasah. memang puasa ni gua tak payah nak risau-risau bertambah gemuk, memang udah confirm!

dan orang dekat bppk pulak macam tau-tau je gua sememangnya looking forward untuk keluar dari perlis ni, terus saja hari ni gua dapat surat untuk 1 week program dekat Uniten bangi next week. makan dan accomodation will be sponsored. jadinya, puasa ni memang tiap-tiap minggu la gua balik kampung. huahahah! syiok giler! yang tak syioknya, balik je dari program ni gua kena pecut full speed untuk kejar rms. kalau tak, boleh tahan juga student gua kena tinggal dengan keretapi.

aha, lupa nak nak cakap. gua dah start masuk class. ada 2 kelas. ada 2 lab. ada 2 kali seminggu personalized session. semua subject lain-lain. tapi semuanya ada kaitan dengan c++ programming. total hour seminggu 16 jam. gua robot? mungkin. gua seronok? kadang-kadang. eh, mana boleh. ya, saya seronok masuk kelas. tengok muka student yang kadang-kadang welcoming dan kadang-kadang macam tak. kadang-kadang nampak faham, kadang-kadang nampak berserabut. apapun, gua lecturer yang garang. student tak berani tegur di luar kelas. tapi dalam kelas, mereka sangat eager untuk tahu semua. mereka suka bila gua datang tempat mereka dan tunjuk apa yang salah apa yang betul. mungkin mereka rasa istimewa?

haha! kalau dulu, gua paling cuak kalau lecturer gua da start nak ronda. ada yang nakal dan mereka tanya, cik dah kawin? oh, gua tak pakai engagement ring sebab gua orang yang mudah hilangkan barang. terutamanya barang seperti ini. paling akhir gua pakai barang kemas, mungkin ketika darjah-darjah. nasib baik dia faham. apapun, gua mahu jadi lilin yang dihormati dan disenangi. dan ajar benda yang perlu dan betul. ingat, yang perlu dan yang betul.

tadi gua interview students yang baru balik LI. nak kasi markah untuk LI tu le based on report etc etc. gua kan memang particular sikit bab report, sebab gua rasa kat report le senang nak score. kalau betul formatting, isi kandungan bagus memang dah boleh sangat la score (ah, time LI dulu gua dapat A- je, thanks but no thanks Teknik Padu...sv gua kata diowang punya punya rep kasi markah bapak sikit kat kitowang). gua tanya, apa benda extra yang diowang blajar time LI. one of them bley cakap, one of the thing is dia belajar defrag. apa kejadah. takkan dah semester 3 tak penah defrag disk? huih, kata student IT. aduh! walhal, benda macam tu macam basic juga la kan untuk student IT tau. tu yang menguatkan lagi tekad gua untuk mengajar benda yang perlu dan betul kepada student-student gua. amin!

she said: "kecelakaan apakah ini?"

2009-08-15T19:07:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah. nyawa gua masih lagi dipanjangkan Tuhan. kecelakaan yang berlaku di pekan Changlun tengah hari tadi memang memberi impak hebat kepada gua. dah la duduk sorang di perantauan. kete eksiden pula. apa lagi kalau bukan dilanggar lori kontena bedebah yang tahu nak laju je. report polis semua dah buat tinggal nak beli salinan je sebab opis diowang dah tutup. pegawai tu tanya gua tadi, ni pertama kali eksiden? aku jawab, ye tuan. kamu nampak rilek je. aku jawab, saya panik sebenarnya tuan tu sebab saya terus datang sini walaupun perut saya lapar. memang gua lapar gile. sepanjang proses merepot dan amik statement tu, gua asek terbayang-bayang nasi jagung lauk kambing dalam kereta. gua juga jadi kacau mengenangkan sindirian pedas-pedas yang bakal diterima daripada bapak gua.

gua balik rumah, gua google apa next step sebab sebelum ni gua mana peduli dengan proses-proses dengan insuran ni. so lepas ni gua kena call ejen insurans gua dan tanya pasal apa yang gua kena buat. kena antar sendiri ke kereta atau kena tow? kalau tow, free ke apa sebab kereta gua boleh jalan lagi la. dokumen-dokumen pun gua kena prepare within this week. mana larat buat time bulan puasa nanti. policy ada kat bapak gua plak di seremban. ahhh dammit!

she said: "auntie syikin!"

2009-08-13T14:41:00.003+08:00

anak kak pidda dan jay. layla namanya. sedang menggayakan tudung fesyen bandana.

she said:"i'm finally a ring bearer!"

2009-08-05T20:53:00.004+08:00

time gua mula-mula datang dulu, padi dekat sawah depan poli ni masih menghijau. gua jadi macam orang sakai tengok sawah yang menghijau. pantang lalu depan sawah, mesti gua rasa sangat gembira. gua pun tak tau kenapa gua suka sangat tengok sawah padi. mungkin sebab pemandangan yang indah? ataupun sebab sepanjang hidup gua, ni la first gua dapat hidup berdekatan dengan tempat yang mempunyai pemandangan yang dulu hanya dapat gua lukis time pendidikan seni? atau sebab gua memang dah tua dan berjiwa terlebih sentimental? semua tu teka teki hidup. gua rasa biar la gua tak tau jawapannya. sebab kadang-kadang bila kita dah tau jawapan satu-satu persoalan tu, everything goes boring.

berbalik pada cerita sawah padi, sekarang dah bulan ogos. kebanyakan padi yang menghijau tu dah masak dan kat sesetengah kawasan, padinya dah siap berketam. gua tak tahu jika teknik tradisional masih digunakan untuk menuai padi ni sebab kat mana-mana je gua asek nampak jentera kuning yang dipanggil combiner tu kat tengah-tengah sawah. proses menuai pun dah jadi cepat. dapat makan beras baru? ah, sepanjang gua kat sini... se pot nasik pun gua tak penah masak. bukan apa, macam membazir. bukan ramai pun dalam rumah ni kalau nak masak. tapi mungkin bila gua dah bersedia nak masak, dah ada fridge ke rice cooker ke... mungkin akan dipertimbangkan.

apapun, gua dah nak start masuk class minggu depan. doakan gua agar dapat menjadi lilin yang benar-benar berguna kepada orang lain. dalam tak sedar, gua dah mula adapt dengan kehidupan kat sini. takde apa yang rush. cuma gua dah terbiasa buat kerja dengan serius jadi bila gua buat kerja jangan harap gua nak layan apa-apa gangguan. sebab gua baru, semangat nak explore dan nak tahu semua gua masih menebal. dan gua harap sangat yang semangat ini sentiasa menebal...

p/s: rumah gua dah ada stimix...yeay!

she said:"buleh gilo makcik!"

2009-07-19T22:06:00.000+08:00

once upon time on a fine sunday morning...

a mobile phone rang with unfamiliar number calling...

me: hello?

unfamiliar voice: hello! ni cik syikin ke?

me: ye?

unfamiliar voice: saya *** dari kelas ***. saya nak tanya pasal ptptn lah cik.

me: ok, ada masalah apa?

dalam hati gua mengagak masalah-masalah yang berkemungkinan iaitu 1. tak bley login portal

2. no pin tak bley pakai

3. tak bley isi form sebab pakai browser lain selain ie which is something ptptn should fix la. kata nak pecahkan dominasi microsoft, buat la portal yang compatible.

student: saya lupa kata laluan saya la cik.

me: ooo...dekat situ ada link untuk retrieve password awak. click situ then masukkan no ic awak.

student: saya dah masukkan no ic dah tapi takde pun.

me: awak kena tengok dalam emel awak, dia hantar kat situ.

student: tapi emel saya dah kena block cik.

me: ....

masalah macam ni la yang gua malas gila nak dengar. semua ni bikin gua jadi tak ceria di pagi ahad yang sepatutnya gua mesti ceria sebab gua ada dekat seremban! tapi kalau gua dekat perlis, gua confirm cari student tu kasi luku sikit dia punya kepala. berbalik pada student tadi, gua kasi dia 2 suggestion iaitu sama ada dia pegi talipon ptptn tanya buleh selamatkan masalah dia ke tak atau pergi beli no pin baru and register semula. sebelum letak talipon gua kasi dia peringatan juga suruh bukak mail account yang baru. adehai...macam-macam cerita lawak.

she said: "abih dah cuti..."

2009-06-30T12:02:00.003+08:00

oh oh oh! been away from perlis for 3 weeks and going back to work is really disastrous for me. first day, woke up late and today i woke up with this terrible headache because i stayed up late to watch made of honor. ah, patrick dempsey is toootally gorgeous, doesn't matter what you said. haha!

i had a session with my one and only student for this short semester yesterday. and its seems like i will have daily session with her until the end of this semester. i'm not sure if i'm the bad teacher or what. but i had a really hard time explaining stuff to her since her english is very limited (not saying that my english is good but hey, you're polytechnic student aren't you? can you please make some effort?) and perhaps because i don't have experience teaching someone with zero c++ knowledge. the interns at materialise at least know a bit about C++ and obviously new developers there always have a better knowledge on C++ than moi. hahah! but then again, it makes me eager to try harder and harder! :P

and yeah, i passed my OO.org test! its a good news for this week, at least i didn't attended the course for nothing isn't it? so i guess, i will parade my smile till the end of the day. ah, i should continue smiling because tonight, for the first time we will go out to watch movie. :P

oh please read what my brother got to say about that friggin stupid kesatuan express bus (if you understand what is he writing about). i beg everyone to totally boycott this bus. its a nightmarish experience and cant you believe it, i didnt sleep for the whole 8 hours bus ride. nyampahnya!

lagu sedap

2009-06-20T13:53:00.000+08:00

she said: "songau boto sogho den ha!"

2009-06-17T00:32:00.002+08:00

sesungguhnya haze yang melanda negara telah membawa penyakit kepada seluruh keluarga encik abd samad. apa cerita satu rumah kena selsema? sroooottt!

as i've mentioned in my previous post, currently i'm happily wasting my one week holiday, in the place where i long to be..home sweet home. hari-hari boleh makan masakan mama. hari-hari boleh dengar joke sinis papa. boleh bergurau senda dengan adik-adik gua yang dah makin membesar. hebat betul perasaan ini. cewah! tapi betul la kata orang, lagi jauh kita daripada family, lagi la kita appreciate and want to seize every moment with them. bukan gua tak pernah duduk jauh dari family gua, tapi ini betul-betul punya jauh dan bukan juga untuk 2,3 bulan...mungkin juga makan 3,4 tahun? i can manage it. i'll do my best.

apa yang gua buat time cuti seminggu ni? aha, ada 2 benda penting yang perlu disetelkan. satu projek jangka masa panjang dan satu lagi projek jangka masa pendek. tapi dua-dua kena siap sebelum ogos. dua-dua kena present. dua -dua penting sebab dua-dua adalah first experience gua dalam bidang berkaitan. apa pun, doakan gua berjaya dalam kedua-dua projek gua ni.

aha, sejak pergi kursus openoffice.org itu hari, gua dah tak pakai microsoft office dah untuk benda-benda yang berkaitan dengan word processing ngan spreadsheet. gua guna writer ngan calc je. sebab functionality dah lebih kurang dan gua rasa kalau lecturer sendiri tak guna openoffice.org untuk buat kerja, whats the purpose nak ajar and encourage students guna kan? dan kalau diri sendiri tak start, sia-sia je efforts gua pergi kursus itu hari kan (walaupun tatau pass exam ke tak!)? kalau kowang just guna basic functionality untuk buat benda-benda word processing ngan spreadsheet, boleh la download openoffice.org ni. free je nak guna. installer pun boleh download je, tak payah terhegeh-hegeh nak pegi cari dvd pirate microsoft office dah lepas ni. :)

she said: "selagi tak ketaq lutut naik tangga tu, selagi tu la tak sampai umoh kita lagi..."

2009-06-10T08:36:00.002+08:00

the quarter's apartment i shared with other 2 housemate are located on the 4th floor of the 5 storey building. its lucky we didn't end up on the roof top though because i think i will have a very beautiful legs in no time for that (which i dont wnat because i love the fat there, haha!). the last time during study year at utem, i was once located on the 3rd floor of the 4 storey hostel apartment and that was nightmare too when we want to move in and out. all the stuff need to be carried down and yeah, its a total disaster for my back. ahehe, what a memory.

this whole week, i was having a course on openoffice.org in cyberjaya. they want to start using open source software now in government agency and i guess will try to implement the usage of oss in the academic sector in no time. i'm all for this oss thing because yeah, its frigging free and i dont ahve to spent a penny on liscencing stuff. just need some training and i guess we're ready to use it because the look and feel is so familiar with the office. and yes, we can straight away convert it to pdf if we like. i've used openoffice.org before during my internship so i guess i'm a bit familiar with the feature.

i will have one week breakaway in seremban next week. i'm totally looking forward to it. and since school holiday is over, i guess the beach in pd is already deserted during that time. i badly want to go to beach and berenang-renang di dalamnya. obviously to get rid of this prickly heat effect (which already berkurangan after the jab at clinic penawar).

and one last thing for sure, klinik kesihatan arau sucks a lot! what? kaunter pendaftaran tutup pukul 11.30 pagi on friday? bullshit! if its not because i'm a so-called goverment servant, i wouldnt even want to go there.

she said: "sempoiii...!"

2009-06-01T13:59:00.002+08:00

as usual, weekend is the days that i dreaded the most. twice a month, my housemates will go back to their hometown and it will be totally boring for the whole weekend. the equation is going to be :

2 days(hot weather + no interesting plans - beach) = boring.

so last weekend, which can be considered as the lucky weekend for me because i have some place to go. yeap, i went to ina's sister wedding in jitra. that was the second visit to jitra since i'm here. first visit was to make sure i know the route to jitra and this second visit is where i completely go greedy and ate 2 pinggan of char kuey tiow. first plate courtesy of ina and second one was together with ana who flew all the way from kl just to spend the weekend with me (ala, sebab kakak ina kawin sebenarnya..:P).

we also went to padang besar eventho poket tak berapa nak memberansangkan which is good otherwise ada orang balik kl with huge luggage. tapi seriously, boleh juling juga mata sebenarnya tengok barang-barang yang dijual. pepehal, sila layan gambar kahwin di sini.

she said: "ulat bulu panjat lidi..."

2009-05-24T14:16:00.002+08:00

there's nothing much to talk about this week (not that i have so many things to talk about for the last few weeks ;)) but hey, i finally managed to explore 2 places that perlis famous for.

my weekend trip to kaki bukit yesterday was intended to visit gua kelam or cave of darkness together with my new housemates. the name reminded me of the series, cave of the golden roses. the journey took almost 45 minutes from our place since we dont have map and basically we just drive along guided by those signboards. there were hell a lot of signboards and it makes too confusing but fret not, all of it is leading to the same direction. the different is either you're taking the long way or shortcut. we passed through some small towns, a lot paddy fields, one big dam and small grape plantation (yes, i am surprised myself). the road is totally not busy since it is saturday and according to the local we asked, people only went out to gua kelam for picnic and all on sunday. wonder if its true. we reached gua kelam at almost 1 pm and no, we didnt picnic or go swimming in the stream because we didnt prepare any food or bring clothes for that.

gua kelam is totally not kelam anymore. there were a lot of colorful spotlights all over the cave and it makes it all look artificial. i felt like taking photos in some theme park. the wooden walkaway was build to ease the visitors. if you're fan of stalagmites and stalagtite, you may go fancy all the features in the cave. i, myself who's never been to any cave except one during high school for a weekend camping (but it was too dark and the stream inside the cave is too fast for me to go adoring all the cave features) really taking my time to go adoring it all. it is sad though because some irresponsible morons carved and graffitized their name on the stones to mark their uninvited presence.

after going through the cave, we were mused by the greeneries of little forest in the nakawan range. the riverside garden is complete with facilities like public toilet and all but all of them are left unattended. but no garbage are spotted. few teenagers are having good time splashing around in the water and some other group are having picnic by the little river. there are also camping ground if you felt like camping there which i think i would like to try someday. i fancy all the huge trees there and spotted a really big, fat caterpillar and lintah!

when we had enough feasting on the greeneries, we walked back to our car. try to ask around about laksa belut and none of the hawkers there know how or where to get it there. it seems like the age of laksa belut has already ended in kaki bukit. i will not give up and will try my luck in kuala perlis later.

next destination is wang kelian. we didnt really on the urge to shop because we will not have our paycheck until july but i was totally curious about that place. its like almost everyone i knew who've been to shopping trip to the border of malaysia-thailand would suggest wang kelian instead of padang besar. why?

and after 5 kilometers of hiking up the steepy hill in my low cc saga, going through all sides of sharp corners, and 2 check points...we arrived and i know why. for me, wang kelian is more like a pasar tani tanjung ipoh. they have stalls on both side of road all the way to custom and immigration checkpoints that sells lot of goodies. this is where the power of bargain control it all. the more you bargain, the more you buy. haha! i didnt buy anything significant but i can tell, i'm good at bargaining stuff. i think my mum will be happy if i bring her here if she come for visit. :)

we went back to our place in total exhaustion after 6 pm. watched juno and went to bed early. for photos, please click here.

she said: "gua penat! tapi gua tak mau tido!"

2009-05-13T19:18:00.004+08:00

last week memang minggu yang memenatkan. hari isnin, gua dapat arahan ssuruh pergi seminar 3D punya software product dekat uitm shah alam. okay, bergegas la gua ngan sowang housemate gua pergi shah alam. drive dari arau ke shah alam malam-malam bukanlah satu pengalaman yang nice. banyak lori. penat bekerja siang tadi lagi. tapi gua excited sebab for once, gua dapat keluar dari dunia yang penuh kebosanan. sampai dalam pukul 1 pagi, memang takde pikir lain selain dari tido.

esoknya abis je seminar, gua terus cabut pergi opis lama. nak pass buah mangga yang gua bawak all the way from perlis. lepas tukar-tukar kabar berita, gua pecut pergi seri kembangan sebab malam tu gua nak lepak rumah adik gua. nak dijadikan cerita, gua nyaris-nyaris kena saman sebab guna handphone sambil memandu. tapi agaknya brader polis tu tengok muka gua macam orang tak de duit je, dia jadi kesian. makanya, amaran lembut je yang diberikan kepada saya. gila lu. kalau kena saman, mau 3 rat melayang. mana nak dapat duit banyak2 tu? gua bukan orang senang. hish.

weekend arituh, sebab perlis cuti panjang sampai hari isnin gua berjaya drive seorang diri ke penang. gua bosan seh duduk rumah sorang-sorang. walaupun penang ada swine flu, gua nekadkan juga diri untuk menempuh segala cobaan demi mi udang sungai dua. ah, memang nikmat. puas hati gua dapat makan udang-udang gemuk tu. tapi mengenangkan kebodohan gua sebab nak bayar tol untuk penang bridge sebanyak rm 2 je membuatkan gua rasa tak nak datang dah sana. hish! mana gua tau tol dia berapa ringgit!

tapi masuk keje hari ni tetap membasikan, sampai-sampai je dapat note mintak tolong jaga exam final subjek penyediaan makanan dan minuman. macam tu punya nama pun ada. hebat! gua takde pulak buat rajin pegi tengok soalan dia apa, rasa rugi pula bila malam-malam ni. dressing student pegi jawab exam kat sini, jauh langit dari bumi dengan budak-budak utem pegi jawab exam. mana ada student pakai jeans ngan t-shirt sebab dah tentu jeans diharamkan pemakaiannya kat sini. yang lelaki pakai kemeja siap tie. yang perempuan pakai baju kurung dari kain yang paling terkini. pendek kata, memang patut la orang unit peperiksaan kelmarin misunderstood gua sebagai student. hehe!

she said: "biaq pi la na?"

2009-05-06T13:00:00.003+08:00

tiba-tiba slang dah tukar loghat utara la ni. masuk kandang kambing mengembek, masuk kandang lembu menge'moo moo', ye tak? dah berapa banyak loghat daerah yang gua dah berjaya kuasai? fuh, boleh tahan banyak la kan? mana taknya, waktu study kat kuantan gua belajar cakap style terengganu dan kelantan (ok laa...cakap pahang pun ada juga). time kat melaka, gua memang dah didedahkan dengan cakap style utara walaupun housemate gua kata gua cakap macam orang siam. kat sini, gua just kena polish je la sikit-sikit kan.

seminggu sudah gua bermastautin di perlis. takde apa sangat sumbangan yang dah gua buat melainkan mengkayakan makcik cafe ptss ni. asek pegi makan je. harga makanan, boleh la tahan. tak de la sampai harga yang gua expect sebab ada sekali gua makan mau jugak sampai 4-5 inggit walhal takde la ambik lauk fancy fancy sangat. tapi minyak kete memang jimat. gua isi minyak rm 50 dari minggu lepas, tak luak-luak beb. gua nak target isi minyak rm50 je sebulan, amacam?

pepehal, kalau nak tengok gambar sila klik sini. gua akan extend lagi koleksi gambar dalam album tu. semua orang curious macam mana rupa bentuk muka bumi tempat baru gua ni. :P

she said: "gilo hijauuuuu!"

2009-05-01T23:24:00.002+08:00

i am officially leaving behind all the busy and hectic life in PJ for my post-materialise life. its a tough decision but like some people said, a tough decision could be a beginning of new good things we can do in our life. i'm sad to leave behind everything and everyone especially my family and good friends at work but life must goes on.

we had 24 hours journey from seremban to arau. stopped at few rnr and have a good sleep in alor star before continuing our journey. yes, the changes of landscape makes me feel better. a bit sad, of course but the greeneries of paddy fields is something that i will learn to appreciate.

among of the few essential things that need to be done is to meet the director of the polytech, getting the internet connection into the house and yeah, adaptation process. wish me luck people...i will post some photos of paddy fields new my new place later. daaag!

they said: "pikir long term la beb..."

2009-04-26T18:24:00.002+08:00

i said, "can I have a little bit time off on this and let me enjoy what I have for now?" and if we think about long term (in whatever) that it is necessary for us to do so, to go there? for my case, it is necessary because i have the bond with them. hahahah!

i have to admit that its seems like a dream. i am still working at materialise and i was sending an appeal to postpone the date of reporting my duty while waiting for the result of my appeal to scholarship division. i am still not prepared to step into formal education world. its never about the money i earned here or there. its about me, liking what i'm doing or not.

i knew, the we can grow interest we have. but have you heard about a teacher or lecturer went to work for the sake of doing some job and having monthly payment? they really not enjoying what they did and they end up slacking off, ignoring their students, didnt teach their student well, their students hate them so much...i dont want to fall into that category. i love to do teaching job, i just want some extra time for me to gain as much experience as i can so i'm not acting like empty tin in front of my student.

because we're student once. and we (im not sure about you but I did) hate it so much when our lecturer didnt know what the hell are they teaching us about. they let us copy notes from books. they let us read and do assignment from the handouts. the rest? go figure it out yourself while doing your internship. if you're lucky, you'll landed somewhere they make you do something useful, but if not you'll end up making coffee to your boss or making 100 copies of whatever documents your boss want to. for the sake of it.

but yeah, i'm still waiting for what happen next. if its really necessary for me to leave behind the job i love...

she said: "aaachhhhummmm!"

2009-04-13T23:10:00.002+08:00

do you know each oranges is differ from each other in term of taste and aroma even though they are from the same branch? yes, i'm talking about oranges because i'm badly infected by this flu. this watery flu to be exact. and orange contains a lot of vitamin c. and i need a lot of vitamin c to counterattack this influenza virus. 8)

i'm totally wasted...

she said: "i have that ability!"

2009-04-06T20:23:00.003+08:00

hey hey hey! i'm back from planet syik. so many things have happened with or without my conscious. people born, married, enganged, died, graduated, fired, employed. heh!

as most of you knew, i was in belgium last few weeks. and since then, i lost my appetite to update this blog. all i want to do is play catching up with my dvds and books and enjoying the jetlag and stomach cramp. not to mention stuffing myself fat with the chocolade. well, live life.

what i learned this time? i am the greedy merchant who win a lot and at the end, will lost a lot too.reality bites eh?and yeah, i learned that girls can read map too. i went to london for my weekend trip. and yes, i love the trip. i wish i could go to uk againa nd this time to enjoy all the greeneries and away from the hectic of the city. wish i could gather loads and do that. :)

now, i want to enjoy every beat of my life and be grateful, because i have been surrounded by nice and supportive people be it family or friends, it makes me hard to believe that i live in a cruel world. even if i have two best buddies who're so near but felt so far, i think we're always in a comfort zone. even when my dad refused to change channel when we want to watch cerekarama instead of football, i still think we're always in our comfort zone. do i have to wake myself up from this comfort zone?

she said: "i wouldnt want to be a catcher in the rye"

2009-02-28T15:03:00.003+08:00

Take most people, they're crazy about cars. They worry if they get a little scratch on them, and they're always talking about how many miles they get to a gallon, and if they get a brand-new car already they start thinking about trading it in for one that's even newer. I don't even like old cars. I mean they don't even interest me. I'd rather have a goddam horse. A horse is at least human, for God's sake.

i finally bought the book that i'm dying to buy since i knew the title. its a shame because i only read it after 26 years of living my life. wtf. they day i bought it, its not even payday yet and all i have in my wallet is my safety money. they have this combo of 3 penguin books (one flew over cuckoo's nest, on the road and the catcher in the rye) for a very good price and i am popular card member which entitled me for 10% discount, i couldn't take my eyes off of the pack. yeah, i have this habit of shopping. if my eyes caught something that makes me want to buy them and i have some money with me, i lost all the brains i have. that's how usually i ended up broke. :)

anyway, i read the book greedily for the whole night. i chewed every single things the author was writing and swallowed them like they're chunks of belgian chocolate with pure hazelnut praline which is one of the thing that i like to eat anytime. for most of the things in the story, it really about how we actually feel in real. one of the thing, we tend to say "nice to meet you" when we want to say goodbye even though the feeling of meeting that person is not even near nice. and things like "I don't hate too many guys. What I may do, I may hate them for a little while, like this guy Stradlater I knew at Pencey, and this other boy, Robert Ackley. I hated them once in a while — I admit it — but it doesn't last too long, is what I mean. After a while, if I didn't see them, if they didn't come in the room, or if I didn't see them in the dining room for a couple of meals, I sort of missed them. I mean I sort of missed them." you know what i mean?

she said: "totally can't wait for this!"

2009-02-22T16:38:00.002+08:00

...and counting!

she said: "lily allen pun dah kurus, kau bila lagi?'

2009-02-14T20:49:00.003+08:00

okay okay, gua tengah download album baru lily allen. serius tak sabar nak dengar. <3

she said: "haaa...apa cerita?"

2009-02-01T14:01:00.004+08:00

secara seriusnya, gua tak pernah tengok the making of.. apa cerita pun yang hampir setiap ayatnya dimulakan dengan "Haaa..." macam the making of Geng Pengembaraan Bermula... tadi. lepas tu, style cakap semua production crew dia saaamaa je.. mungkin sebab dah bekerja dengan production cerita tu selama 3 tahun, they have almost similar way of talking now. ke purposely cakap gitu sebab upin & ipin cakap gitu? rilek rilek sudah la brader...tapi apa pun, i am totally excited about this movie. after upin & ipin, i think they'll offer more for this film. cant wait to watch it! jom tengok!

yesterday i went to see another soccer match at setia alam. it was a friendly game and totally fun watching it because there was no sun striking hot on me as usual as the game started at 8pm. it was really fun even though the team i'm supporting lost 2-3 to another team that i dont know what were they called. but hell, i can see satisfaction of playing soccer with no obligation of winning or losing on their face (from my point of view), just for the love of playing football. again, i didnt know much about this game but will try to be one good supporter as i can. :D

he said: "trade all your heroes in for ghost.."

2009-01-27T18:51:00.002+08:00

an excerpts...

Sean has written a lot more of the music with James this time around. And I wrote half of the music for the first single, Your Love Alone Is Not Enough, which features Nina Persson of The Cardigans, who I think are one of the great underrated bands and I love her voice. It's a complicated lyric. What it's trying to say on one level is that any single element is never enough for a country to survive. You can't solely have religion, or love, or democracy. We need all these elements for any country to be coherent. It is also about people and specifically, suicide. There are just too many people I've known who have killed themselves. James was like, "Great. Another fucking song about suicide! I thought you did all that on your solo album?" I guess people will assume it is about Richey too. He was in a successful band, he could have had a nice girlfriend if he wanted, and we all loved him. But it wasn't enough. Whether its suicide or not, obviously, we don't know. But there's a line in there: "I could have seen for miles and miles/I could've shown you how to smile/I could've shown you how to cry" it's just that feeling of regret. Could someone have done more?

p/s: too bad i couldnt embedded the vc so that you can see the way nina rocking the stage!!

she daid: "nak sangat pegi mandi laut..."

2009-01-26T15:35:00.002+08:00

happy chinese new year to every malaysian! sibuk je nak celebrate sekali. well, its national celebration, so what kan? :D at least i can stay at home and watch the dvds whole day. and yes, since cultivating fat in those 'area' has become one of my special skills that i should put on my resume in skills section, i did ate a lotttt these holidays! proud of it though! i promise i will start futsal next week. probably i should just have to motivate myself a little bit to move that fatty legs of mine and kick some balls. no more stupid excuses like i lost my socks or the likes.

this evening, papa really throw me out of my league. i was on the phone with my uncle and he lived somewhere in subang but he doesnt know how to give direction to me. so i asked his address and look it up on google map. i thought it could be more interesting if my dad sit with me watching me using google map because he was so into map things. i started to instruct him to open the browser, asked him to type the full url "http://maps.google.com/" into the address bar when he said why dont we just type "google map" instead of those lengthy url. and i said it wont find it, it need full url to open the web. but he insist on typing "google map" and yes, with all my pride i said "okay! we'll see!". and guess what, it did open the frigging google map. and i was blushed like one big rotten beetroot to see my dad grin the big grin. malu siak! whatever it is, for me it is showing the improvement on my dad's internet skill. he used to go against my idea of having streamyx in this house but now, he's the one who will open up the browser and read his newspaper when he couldn't bought the paper. he even had email account. and my mom now also have yahoo messenger and chat with me. what?! at 50s, they finally realized how important internet for us, their children. not just for fun, but also for the good of it.

ah enough about that. i realize that i'm a bit inconsistent with my emotion this few days. i get angry when azhan said that his mom talks about his brother's girlfriend (and why the hell should i be angry in the first place? i dont know!) , i get angry when my mom said that she wants to buy a little gold bracelet with some money i gave her and not to mention thousands of angriness at my sisters for various reason. what is happening to me? its not like i get angry and start throwing tantrums or stuff like that, but still it hurt me so much seeing the sadness or frustration on their face right after i shoot out those angriness. when im angry i felt like i was overrule by someone or something else. i didnt realized what i said. i totally somewhere else. but hey, right after that i'm absolutely normal. i guess they all have cope with it. i did some sort of talk with my sister and they admit that its already become norm. haha! luckily! i love them all okay, its not that i had anything against them. sometimes its just a small stuff. oh perhaps i should join them pay uno card now.

he said: "tido la u..."

2009-01-13T01:48:00.003+08:00

damn! its 2 am and i still cant sleep. esok keje. tolong la wei!

she said: "cherry blossom fever"

2009-01-11T03:48:00.002+08:00

i love to see them moving swiftly
from one corner to another
dancing so gracefully
flutter around the stage
like a beautiful butterfly

she said:"the night starts here"

2009-01-10T13:38:00.002+08:00

spitting merlion

have you ever been in a crowded place and bumped into someone that you remember seeing their face somewhere? no, im not talking about bumping into celebrity, you silly. i mean, you met this person probably virtually, and you suddenly bump into them in real. will you have the guts to say hi and not even sure that the person you bumped into is the right person? i often do that, not that i'm sooo friendly, but its lovely to see the surprise in their face and the little chat we have afterwards. do you think i'm a freak though?

i still remember one time when hafiza and i totally have nowhere to go after a gig in kl during our 'karat' time. we just took a train to shah alam, hoping to squat at a friend's place in section 7. we have no mobile during those days and the money was really low. and on the train, i thought i saw a friend of friend but i wasn't totally sure. when we reached shah alam, the public phone at the station couldnt be used. stupid vandals. and the night's getting late. again i saw that person with his bunch of friends and out of nowhere, i dare myself to just randomly called his name. who knows i might be correct. and i was correct. he helped by letting us staying at his girl friend's flat that night. cool!

and during my trip to singapore, i kept bumping into someone whom i only saw her photos on myspace. we've promised to meet but my mobile was in dummy mode since i stepped into singapore and i thought there's no way i could meet her since no plan had been made. but hey, like what she said... "fate has it" and its so lovely to see those little surprise in her eyes when i called out her name after i saw her walking pass me in a crowded mrt station. sweet coincidents.

thats about it.

esplanade from a far

the hall where the night starts

on 7th, i celebrate my first anniversary with materialise by watching the awesome stars. what made it more special, i'm paying the ticket with my own money. probably it meant nothing for everyone else but it is one of the promise i made to myself when i started working. go see my favorite bands playing. meant, not just any bands. and stars are one of my favorite bands. not fall out boys or mogwai. so stop asking me either i'm going to watch mogwai in kl or not! :) and talking about the show, enough if i said that it is truly fantastic. maybe, bloody fantastic. even with the weird seating coordination.

and thats about it.

ah, one more thing... the chilli crab at lau pa sat was a real deal. hell break loose if you didnt try it once you're there. hahah!

the famous chilli crab?

she said: "i know what i've done in 2008!"

2009-01-07T05:05:00.002+08:00

so this is the second week of 2009. sometimes i still do silly mistake with the date. 2008 must have been one of the greatest year in my life. some of my dreams were achieved during these year and i have a lot of beautiful memories in 2008. among the greatest events in 2008 that happened to me including:

1. landed my first job even before i finished my study (which save my ass from the bloody job hunting after graduation).

2. earn my first salary in k.

3. set my feet on the soil of belgie and indulged its beauty(and crazy madly want to go back there!).

4. climbed the eiffel tower, saw monalisa and visit montmarte in paris.

5. exploring through the busy amsterDAM.

6. take a cruise along the rhine and saw famous the famous koln dom.

7. both of my sisters surprised our with the flying colors results.

8. zuraini's wedding and others.

9. bought a ticket to watch stars.

10. bought a car and havent drive it to work yet! haha!!

now, what should i achieve in 2009? people at my age are either racing to get married or trying to earn as much as they can. i prefer not to join in the race but i like the later option. probably i should think of the way how to earn extra. but to have a monthly shopping spree isnt my objective in earning more. i need those money to fund my enthusiasm - travelling and eating! i also need to save up for later. who knows if the bell is ringing (hehe!) or shit happen (God forbid!)?

hurm... whatever it is, i need to think carefully before spending now. probably at the time being, one of my prayer for the year 2009 is a salary's increment, Amin! :)

she said: "welcome 2009!"

2009-01-02T14:59:00.002+08:00

i really want to wish everyone a very happy new year before its already 2009. but heck, i was trapped with my own laziness and also the lack of courage and commitment to update my friggin' blog. whatever it is, Happy New Year 2009. may all your dreams come true and success in your future undertaking!

she said: "congrats babe!"

2008-12-23T10:36:00.004+08:00

she's the first collegue in my division who get married. congratulation azilah!

the newly wed couple

with part of DevMal

belasah lauk kenduri

she said: "gimme my coffee!"

2008-12-22T09:00:00.002+08:00

“Programmer - an organism that turns coffee into software.”

I am 69% Addicted to Coffee

mufti perlis said: "Apabila zina lebih mudah daripada kahwin..."

2008-12-19T11:45:00.003+08:00

sempena musim nikah kawin ni, gua nak share apa yang ditulis oleh mufti perlis, Dr Mohd Asri Zainul Abidin....

MINGGU depan adalah minggu terakhir saya sebagai Mufti Negeri Perlis. Tulisan hari ini adalah yang kedua sebelum yang terakhir pada minggu hadapan. Banyak perkara yang ingin saya kongsikan sepanjang tempoh dua tahun menjadi mufti. Namun, nampaknya saya terpaksa tangguhkan terlebih dahulu hasrat itu kerana buat penghabisan kali di atas jawatan ini saya ingin menyentuh kerenah perkahwinan dalam negara ini. Hal ini penting terutama menjelang musim cuti sekolah kerana ramai yang akan berkahwin.

Antara peruntuh nilai-nilai baik dalam kehidupan manusia hari ini adalah apabila dimudahkan yang haram dan disukarkan yang halal. Sedangkan Islam menyuruh kita membentuk suasana atau iklim kehidupan yang menyukarkan yang haram dan memudah yang halal. Itulah tanggungjawab pemerintah dan umat iaitu menegah yang makruf dan mencegah yang munkar. Menegak yang makruf itu adalah dengan cara menyuruh, memudah dan membantu ke arah tersebut. Sementara mencegah yang munkar adalah dengan cara menghalang, melarang dan menyukarkan jalan untuk sampai kepadanya. Namun, jika masyarakat hari ini menyusahkan yang halal dan menyenangkan yang haram, tanda kita begitu menjauhi ruh syariat Islam yang hakiki yang diturunkan oleh Allah SWT.

Antara perkara yang selalu disusahkan adalah urusan perkahwinan. Kesusahan membina rumah tangga itu kadang-kala bermula dari keluarga sehingga ‘ketidak fahaman’ tok kadi seterusnya pengurusan pejabat agama dan mahkamah syariah. Kerenah-kerenah yang pelbagai telah memangsakan hasrat pasangan untuk mendapat ‘nikmat seks’ secara halal. Lebih menyedihkan apabila kerenah-kerenah itu wujud disebabkan kepentingan-kepentingan luar yang bukan kepentingan pasangan secara langsung.

Umpamanya, urusan kenduri kahwin atau walimah telah dijadikan jambatan kesombongan ibu bapa atau keluarga sehingga ditangguh perkahwinan bagi memboleh kenduri besar-besaran dibuat demi menjaga taraf ‘jenama keluarga’. Sehingga ada pasangan yang terpaksa menunggu bertahun kerananya. Apatah jika keluarga membebankan semua belanja kepada bakal pengantin. Maka bakal pengantin terpaksa mengikat ‘nafsu seks’ hanya kerana hendak menjaga nafsu menunjuk-nunjuk keluarga. Walaupun kenduri kahwin itu disuruh, namun memadailah dengan kadar yang termampu. Tidak semestinya ‘ditumbangkan’ seekor lembu, atau dipanggil orang sekampung atau sebandar, atau dijemput semua rakan taulan. Seseorang mengadakannya dengan kadar kemampuannya, seperti sabda Nabi SAW: “Buatlah walimah walaupun sekadar seekor kambing” (Riwayat al-Bukhari dan Muslim). Dalam erti kata lain, jika hanya mampu kenduri laksa, atau bihun atau mi pun tidak mengapa, asalkan diadakan walimah.

Apa yang penting perkahwinan yang halal telah dilunaskan. Janganlah macam orang dulu apabila anaknya sebut ingin berkahwin, bapanya akan bertanya: “Kau dah ada lembu ke nak buat kenduri?” Maka bertangguhlah hasrat si anak. Padahal bukan anaknya ingin berkahwin dengan lembu, dia ingin berkahwin dengan kekasihnya. Sepatutnya si bapa bertanya: “Kau dah ada pasangan ke?” Itulah soalan yang betul. Lembu tidak termasuk dalam Rukun Nikah. Apa yang lebih buruk apabila ada pihak yang menjadikan medan walimah sebagai pentas menunjuk-nunjuk kekayaan harta lalu hanya dijemput orang yang ‘berjenama’ dan ditinggalkan saudara-mara, kawan-rakan, jiran-tetangga yang tidak setaraf. Nabi SAW bersabda: “Seburuk makanan adalah makanan walimah yang dijemput orang kaya dan ditinggalkan orang miskin..” (Riwayat al-Bukhari dan Muslim). Maka, menderitalah bakal suami-isteri disebabkan keangkuhan keluarga.

Kursus kahwin

Saya bukan antikursus kahwin. Amat baik kursus tersebut jika diuruskan dengan mantap dan betul. Dalam kursus tersebut boleh disampaikan maklumat hukum-hakam nikah yang disyariatkan Allah sehingga generasi muda dapat melihat betapa cantik dan indahnya Islam. Syariat Islam yang mudah dan penuh hikmat dapat diserap dalam pemikiran bakal pasangan, khususnya mereka yang masih muda.

Agar mereka dapat menyelami kehebatan ajaran Islam ini. Maka kursus itu menjadi saluran dakwah penuh profesional, mantap, berkesan dalam jiwa dan penghayatan. Malangnya, kursus kahwin hari ini seakan projek lumayan untuk mengaut yuran peserta. Bukan sedikit saya terima laporan seluruh negara, penceramah kursus kahwin yang berunsur lucah, lawak bodoh serta menggambarkan Islam begitu menakut dan susah untuk difahami dan dihayati. Hukum-hakam diterangkan secara berbelit-belit dan menyerabutkan peserta.
Maka, kita lihat walaupun yuran kursus nampaknya makin tinggi dan peserta semuanya diwajibkan berkursus, masalah keretakan rumah tangga bagi generasi baru semakin meningkat.

Saya juga amat tidak selesa melihat tok kadi yang selalu mendera pengantin agar mengulang-ulang lafaz terima (ijab) ketika akad nikah kononnya belum sah. Akad itu digambarkan begitu sulit dan susah sehingga seseorang menjadi terketar-ketar untuk menyebutnya. Diatur ayat lafaz akad itu dengan begitu skima sehingga pengantin kesejukan untuk menghafalnya. Padahal akad nikah hanyalah bagi menggambar persetujuan kedua belah pihak menjadi suami isteri yang sah. Apa-apa sahaja lafaz yang membawa maksud kepada tujuan tersebut maka ia sah. Jika bapa bakal isteri menyebut ‘saya nikahkan saudara dengan anak saya Fatimah”, lalu bakal suami menjawab: “saya terima, atau saya bersetuju” atau mungkin ditambah “saya terima nikahnya” atau “saya bersetuju bernikah dengannya” seperti yang diminta oleh sesetengah sarjana dalam Mazhab al-Syafi‘i, maka sahlah ijab dan kabul tersebut.

Tidak disyaratkan mesti satu nafas atau dua nafas atau berjabat tangan atau menyusun ayat dalam bahasa sanskrit lama atau ayat tok kadi yang digunakan sebelum merdeka. Sehinggakan sarjana fiqah semasa Dr. Abd al-Karim Zaidan dalam karya al-Mufassal fi Ahkam al-Marah wa al-Bait al-Muslim menyebut: “Jika seseorang lelaki berkata kepada lelaki yang lain: “Nikahkan saya dengan anak perempuan awak”, lalu si bapa itu menjawab: “Aku nikahkan engkau”. Atau si bapa berkata kepada bakal suami: “bernikahlah dengan anak perempuanku”. Lalu bakal suami menjawab: “aku nikahinya”. Kedua contoh di atas adalah sah nikah berdasarkan apa yang disebutkan dalam Sahih al-Bukhari dan Sahih Muslim: Sesungguhnya seorang Arab Badawi telah meminang wanita yang telah mempelawa dirinya untuk Nabi SAW (ingin berkahwin dengan Nabi SAW), Arab Badawi itu berkata:“Nikahilah dia denganku”. Jawab Nabi SAW: “Aku nikahkan engkau dengannya bermaharkan al-Quran yang ada bersamamu”. (al-Mufassal, 6/87, Beirut: Muassasah al-Risalah).

Bahkan dalam Sahih al-Bukhari ada bab yang al-Imam al-Bukhari letakkan ia berbunyi: Bab Iza Qala al-Khatib li al-Wali Zawwijni Fulanah, faqala qad Zauwajtuka bi Kaza wa Kaza, Jaza al-Nikah Wa In Lam Yaqul li al-Zauj Aradita au Qabilta, maksudnya: Bab Apabila Lelaki Yang Meminang Berkata Kepada Wali Perempuan: “Kahwinilah aku dengan wanita berkenaan”, lalu dia menjawab: “Aku nikahkan engkau dengannya bermaharkan sekian dan sekian, maka sah nikahnya walaupun tidak ditanya si suami apakah engkau setuju, atau terima”. Inilah kesimpulan yang dibuat oleh al-Imam al-Bukhari berdasarkan hadis-hadis dalam bab nikah yang diteliti olehnya. Apa yang penting proses ijab dan kabul amatlah mudah. Ia adalah lafaz yang difahami oleh kedua belah pihak serta dua saksi yang menjelaskan kehendak dan persetujuan untuk berkahwin atau menjadi suami dan isteri. Apabila proses itu berlaku maka ia sah. Tidak pernah ada dalil yang menyatakan mestilah satu nafas, atau tidak terputus nafas seperti diada-adakan oleh sesetengah pihak. Paling tinggi yang boleh kita kata adalah tidak boleh ada ruang yang menyebabkan salah satu pihak mengelirukan atau dikelirukan dalam menyatakan persetujuan nikah. Justeru itu Syeikhul Islam Ibn Taimiyyah r.h (meninggal 728H) menyebut: “Nikah itu terlaksana (sah) dengan apa sahaja yang dihitung oleh orang ramai sebagai nikah; dalam apa bahasa, atau lafaz atau perbuatan”. (petikan Sayyid Sabiq, Fiqh al-Sunnah, 2/355).

Apa yang ingin saya jelaskan betapa proses ijab kabul itu begitu mudah dan senang. Memadai jika bakal suami menjawab: “Aku terima nikahnya”. Tidak timbul terpaksa berulang kali seperti yang dibuat oleh sesetengah pihak membuli pengantin. Jika jawapan yang diperlukan begitu ringkas dan jelas, dan pengantin pun telah melakukannya, mengapa pula ada tok kadi yang sengaja bertanya hadirin: Perlu ulang ke? Lalu mereka pun dengan sukanya menyebut beramai-ramai ‘sekali lagi!,
sekali lagi! Ini adalah permainan buli yang cuba dicampur aduk dengan hukum syarak.

Berkahwin

Setelah berkahwin, rumah tangga yang dibina seperti yang diajar oleh Islam hendaklah menjadi syurga, bukan neraka. Jika perkahwinan tidak dapat membawa kebahgiaan, insan tidak disuruh memperjudikan hidup keseluruhan kerana isteri atau suaminya. Walaupun talak itu bukan perbuatan yang baik, namun ia dibenarkan jika terpaksa. Insan mempunyai matlamat hidup, bukan sekadar untuk bertungkus lumus kerana masalah seorang lelaki atau wanita. Maka Islam mengajar cara-cara yang berbagai-bagai demi menyelamatkan rumah tangga dari talak.

Jika gagal, Islam juga mengajar talak untuk mengelakkan kezaliman berlaku antara salah satu pihak; suami atau isteri. Firman Allah: (maksudnya) “Dan apabila kamu menceraikan isteri-isteri (kamu) kemudian mereka (hampir) habis tempoh idahnya maka bolehlah kamu pegang mereka (rujuk) dengan cara yang baik atau lepaskan mereka dengan cara yang baik. Dan janganlah kamu pegang mereka (rujuk semula) dengan tujuan memberi mudarat, kerana kamu hendak melakukan kezaliman (terhadap mereka); dan sesiapa yang melakukan demikian maka sesungguhnya dia menzalimi dirinya sendiri. Dan janganlah kamu menjadikan ayat-ayat hukum Allah itu sebagai ejek-ejekan (dan permainan). Dan kenanglah nikmat Allah yang diberikan kepada kamu, (dan kenanglah) apa yang diturunkan kepada kamu iaitu Kitab (Al-Quran) dan hikmat, untuk memberi pengajaran kepada kamu dengannya. dan bertakwalah kepada Allah serta ketahuilah: sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui akan tiap-tiap sesuatu” (Surah al-Baqarah, ayat 231).

Jika penerusan perkahwinan hanya memberi mudarat kepada pasangan, maka talak itu disuruh oleh al-Quran. Malanglah kaum wanita yang sepatutnya telah dikeluarkan oleh al-Quran dari kezaliman atau kemudaratan si suami, tiba-tiba terjatuh dalam kezaliman batin akibat proses birokrasi mahkamah yang bernama syariah. Maka, wanita hari ini ada yang terseksa batinnya kerana menunggu proses mahkamah yang kadang-kala memakan masa bertahun-tahun. Bagaimana mungkin isteri yang sudah tujuh lapan tahun suaminya tidak mengambil tahu soal nafkah zahir dan batin tetap disahkan oleh mahkamah bahawa dia masih suami sekalipun isteri berulang meminta dipisahkan. Kata Dr. Karim ‘Abd al-Karim Zaidan: “Jika suami gagal menunaikan nafkah untuk isteri, kadi memisah antara mereka jika isteri memilih untuk berpisah...

Hal ini diriwayatkan dari sejumlah para sahabat dan tabi‘in” (al-Mufassal, 7/217). Beliau juga memetik apa yang disebut oleh al-Dardir dalam al-Syarh al-Kabir:
“Bagi isteri boleh menuntut dipisahkan dari suami disebabkan mudarat yang dilakukannya; iaitu apa yang tidak diizinkan oleh syarak untuk dia buat seperti meninggalkan isteri atau memukulnya tanpa sebab dibenarkan syarak. Atau memaki dia atau bapanya seperti menyebut: Wahai anak anjing, atau wahai anak kafir! Atau wahai anak orang yang dilaknat”. Dr Zaidan seterusnya memetik apa yang disebut oleh al-Imam Ibn Taimiyyah: “Maka dianggap memberi mudarat kepada isteri yang boleh dipisah (fasakh) apabila suami meninggalkan persetubuhan dalam apa keadaan sekalipun. Sama ada suami sengaja atau tidak sengaja”. (Ibid 8/439). Semua perbahasan yang begitu banyak boleh didapati dalam khazanah Islam itu menggambarkan rumah tangga untuk kebahagiaan hidup insan bukan untuk kedukaan mereka. Jika rumah tangga itu mengundang kedukaan, insan diberi peluang keluar oleh syarak untuk keluar dari daerah itu dengan segera. Malanglah, jika pintu keluar itu dihalang oleh kerenah birokrasi mahkamah. Hakim barangkali ringan lidahnya menyebut: “Kita tangguhkan perbicaraan kerana suami tidak hadir” sedangkan kesan jiwa begitu besar dan berat ditanggung oleh isteri.

Sebenarnya dalam Islam, jalan kepada halal dan kebahagiaan dibuka dengan begitu luas dan mudah. Dukacita, jika atas nama agama kita menyusahkan jalan yang halal dan dalam masa yang sama ada pula pihak-pihak lain yang memudahkan jalan yang haram. Perlaksanaan agama hendaklah bukan sahaja mendakwa adil, tetapi hendaklah juga kelihatan adil.

she said:"bulan ni memang bulan manusia mengawan le"

2008-12-14T01:27:00.004+08:00

memandangkan sekarang mood orang menikah kawin tengah memuncak, maka gua pun nak post jugak gambar ramai-ramai time majlis pertunangan rumet gua, mak ana dan bapak lokman bertempat di kuala kangsar perak. thanks to her, dapat jugak gua melunaskan kerinduan gua terhadap laksa koleq yang superb tu.

oh, kat bawah ni gambar gua berlakon jadi mak mak. ada gaya tak?

apape pun, gambar ramai-ramai time lynn punya majlis resepsi tadi siang ni serius macam cilaka. to make it worst, muka gua ada red eye. memang pantang betul le kes macam ni. apapun, lynn, congratulation yeah?

she said: "kalau ramai pegi, aku pegi"

2008-12-12T01:12:00.003+08:00

received an invitation for the so-called homecoming for my uni alumni. haven't decide either to go or not. but the memory during our convocation day is too sweet to forget. how can i ever meet the whole bunch again if i ignore this call? but the question is, are the whole bunch is coming too?

he said: "goodnight, i say to you, goodnight"

2008-12-11T00:36:00.004+08:00

what is actually happening to you when you're on a week off from work but then, every morning during your holiday you jumped out of your bed thinking that you're late for work because you didn't hear your annoying alarm sound (you had turned them off remember; you had a week off!)?

and now, a person i thought i could be friend after a strange state we are in seems like deciding that its not a proper option to do so. he's not telling it straight to my face (or to my ear, at least) but i feel there's a relevant in my guessing. or probably he need time to think. and since this deafening silence probably will last forever, just want to say i'm a bit lost too without this little acquaintance.

she said: "gua cuti seminggu beb! jangan jeles ho!"

2008-12-07T01:41:00.005+08:00

after being stuck with the previous layout for as long as i can remember, i finally managed to get a new one. a simple new one. its not that i really need a new one, but just feel like having a new one.

on 28th november, one my best friend finally married. congratulation to you babe! she was so beautiful and not to mention how wonderful and happy she looked on her wedding day! and for this, i'm feasting at her house for almost everyday since before her solemnization ceremony and positively gain weight from it because the food served there were sooo great! i felt truly inspired, touched and moved by her and i felt like screaming out, "hey boyfriend, lets reach our wedding-fund's target before i go crazy!" haha! kidding! i have my own target though. perhaps anti aging cream will help me a little for this. :)

i cant really remember how old my glasses are actualy. probably its been 2 years since? yeah, quite a long time and for those like me, they should consult their optometrist like, every year? guilt for my eyes strike me bad and finally, i consulted one and bought myself a new glass. it frigging black and red. what about it? haha! and yes, my astig still 100 for both eyes. but the lens power is getting high. the left eye rise up to 100 and the left eye, 50. gosh. i will be blind soon if i dont really take care of my eye. thinking of getting lasik. there are few easy installment scheme on it i read but still need to make deeper research on the effects etc. but yeah, with this new frame, probably i dont really have to rely on my contact lens anymore? driving at night? yeay! no more stars? yeay!

and since geert was here, he copied me this series, coupling? have you ever watched it? some short intro about it:

Coupling is billed a young persons comedy programme. All cast members are between 20 and 30 and have a regular meeting point (a bar). Does this seem familiar to anyone? Well you would be right in guessing that this sounds identical to the long running American comedy programme Friends. Coupling is set in London and follows the relationships of 6 friends. Well I say friends but in the first series the characters do not know each other. However gradually as the series progresses they are brought together. To even up matters there are three male (Steve, Patrick and Jeff) characters and three women (Jane, Susan and Sally). The men talk about things like porn videos and lesbians whilst the girls talk about the size of their men's private parts! I would describe coupling as more of a programme for adults rather than the younger audience which Friends targets. The reason for this is down to the nature of many of the jokes and the storylines. Coupling tackles the sexual side of people's relationships. A lot of the jokes are very rude but funny nevertheless.

and for me, it was damn hilarious and i'm totally dig jeff character. he always make me wanna go laughing so hard i could cry! i can even laughed at almost every single words he spoke especially those "wrong thing to say at the worst possible time"! i get addicted after watching its first episode and finished all 4 seasons in one week! quite an accomplishment for me though. and now, almost everynight before sleep i will watch an episode or two of ghost in the shells (thanks to geert too). its really an interesting anime. you should check it out!

ah its getting so late already, gotta catch some sleep. esok nak balik kampung!

he said: "imaterialiseable"

2008-11-26T01:13:00.001+08:00

november. another farewell party happening at our division and this time, it is for pei ting (who's doing the longest intership@ materialise academy so far). well, the party was also intended to be a welcome party for geert, who just arrived for belgium to give 2 weeks training for our cmf team.

the whiteboard - masterpiece from siti, mike and tom...

the food, we have kfc this time since we already sick of domino's. haha!

pei ting with marty of madagascar headgear (after tonnes of persuasion) and geert

makan time!

and finally, uno!

if you notice, the shadows from the lamp was so nice, wasn't it? it was one of the famous lamp shades from .MGX called Quinn.

he said: "please be wary of..."

2008-11-24T13:26:00.002+08:00

got this from trying out google chrome..haha!

Going incognito doesn't affect the behavior of other people, servers, or software. Be wary of:

Websites that collect or share information about you
Internet service providers or employers that track the pages you visit
Malicious software that tracks your keystrokes in exchange for free smileys
Surveillance by secret agents
People standing behind you

she said: "will it always be you"

2008-11-18T18:22:00.004+08:00

these few days is full of tragic events. last saturday, some asshole crashed into my sister car at the t junction in front of the mines shopping fair. it has caused some scratch on the door at the driver's side but everything's alright. no soul injured but my sister suffer a little trauma and i didnt even offer to drive us home that night. we didnt confront the asshole because we're too afraid if something worst than that might happen. we drove home in tears and curse words flying out of our mouth non stop that night. we drowned in a thousands of 'what ifs' until we slept soundly.

and this morning, popped on my window when i switched on my pc at work; an msn message from a collegue, saying that she was robbed last night in front of her house. the things started when she realized she was tailed by a motorcycle on her way back home. she tried to switch her usual route wishing the bike will no longer follow her but she was wrong. while she wanted to open her house's gate, she saw the bike somewhere nearby. she ran to her car for protection probably and bad guy came and smashed her windscreen, took her wallet and handphone. she injured her hands while trying to fight back for her belongings. she failed. luckily the guy didnt do anything to her. i was totally freaked out when i read the message. my house is also in the similar neighbourhood. and it happened in front of her house. it could also happened in front of anyone house. when we just came back from our supper or our weekly futsal. it could happen to anyone (God forbid!). so let us take a very pro active step in fighting the crime in our neigbourhood. bring some protection with you. who knows you might need those. those bad guys are everywhere.

;(

she said: "hey, i've been trying to reach you!"

2008-11-14T08:31:00.003+08:00

rabu lepas main futsal. pertama kali. penat dia rasa macam jogging buat 20 pusingan dekat taman tasik titiwangsa walhal pengalaman jogging gua yang paling maksimum kat situ pun 2 kali round je lepas tu pancit dah. apa pun, gua seronok,yeah!

he said: "yes, but i need to be alone"

2008-11-09T16:06:00.002+08:00

my sister, nabila will be seating for her spm this coming 11th. i wish her all the best. i still vividly remember on year 2000, i spent critical time like this by attending as many gigs as i could. enjoyed every little time i have. that was the year i met a lot of friends (with some of them who's also going to sit for their spm, ye tak nisa) and we have lots of fun, releasing all the tense we gathered during school days for that weekend's gathering. my sister probably doesn't experience what i have but that doesnt make her spm year no fun at all. we all make sure she still get some, even when the pressure is rising now. i am sure she can do her best but even things doesn't turn as what we want, i am sure there're always other oppurtunities waiting to be grab somewhere else. :)

this month is full of event. yeah, with the spm coming up for my sister and my mom's birthday is just around the corner. zuraini's wedding is also important for me. i'm ashame to say that i offer very minor help to my best friend for this critical time of hers. i'm always busy with my works and my weekend never free. but hey, zuraini... i will try to be by your side this coming weekend ok? :) akan ku jahit reben-reben putih itu menjadi satu. akan ku lipat segala kain baju yang bersepah-sepah itu supaya kau boleh bawa ia pindah dengan hati yang riang. kau jangan risau, jangan panik kawan...aku ada di sisimu. cewah!

sapa dah baca roots #9? semalam gua dapat, semalam juga gua habiskan. lepas gua baca, gua jadi kesian dengan din. semua keluhan hati dia satu macam je. adakah ex-tunang din dah jadi the zahir macam dalam buku paulo coelho yang gua baca sebelum ni? dari pembacaan gua, bukan din tak try untuk get away from that situation, tapi dia dah terikat dengan the zahir tu. jadi mana-mana cewek yang berdampingan dengan dia secara tak langsung akan terus terperangkap dengan perbandingan-perbandingan antara cewek tu dan "ideal women" din. gua tau, din takde niat untuk banding-bandingkan sesiapa pun... ah! pandai-pandai je gua nak kait-kaitkan kisah din ni. apa-apa pun, gua nak quote sikit dari buku the zahir ni untuk din.

love is untamed force. when we try to control it, it destroys us. when we try to imprison it, it enslaved us. when we try to understand it, it leaves us feeling lost and confused.

this force is on earth to make us happy, to bring us closer to God and to our neigbour, and yet, given the way that we love now, we enjoy one hour anxiety for every minute of peace.

ha, ni ada lagi benda yang nak dibaca bulan ni selain dari koleksi chick-lit yang gua rembat dari zuraini. k-eight dan romlah. menurut adik gua yang dah khatam dedua buku ni, ada unsur tak senonoh katanya. tak senonoh macam mana gua tatau le sebab gua belum baca. tapi dah king cakap buku-buku tu syiok, kena la baca dulu kan, baru boleh nak banyak cerita. heh!

he said: "take me to the riot"

2008-11-04T21:05:00.002+08:00

when dean emailed me the news, i was nearly jumped out of my chair. i had missed lots and lots of great oppurtunities to see bands i like playing live and i'm not going to say no this time. i'll do whatever it takes to cross the border for this one. hah!

he said: "i believe in fate"

2008-10-21T21:13:00.002+08:00

i cut my hair short. real short and i'm satisfied. why? easy to wash since my hair tend to develop dandruff if i didn't wash it frequently and secondly, i didn't have to ponytails it every time i want to wear my headscarf. i tend to get headache if i tied my hair for a long period and i wear headscarf for almost 9 hours everyday, mind you. and when working with computer, you also tend to get headache more often and it will also worsen your astigmatism. yeap, i am astigmatic. that's the reason now why i rarely drove at night, i see stars damn everwhere.

i just finished reading the zahir and as i've told previously, i friggin love the story. it has so many things that will give you a slap right on your cheek and make you check yourself in the mirror. the words are so beautiful and i could imagine walking down together the street of paris with the the main character of this book. and yeah, the story could actually happened to anyone. and honestly, it frightened me a lot. i dont want my love one to dissapear just like that and become the zahir.

my hunt for bed finally end. i bought myself a wooden bed as i always want. its quite cheap though and the design wasnt that lame. and now all i need is a good matress. not the one from ikea, probably one that less expensive but still come in good quality. its for next month budget lah. broke already these days. hehe!

p/s: chekgu zura, i jawab your tags dalam hati je aci tak?

she said: "aku mengidam kek ko"

2008-10-09T18:48:00.007+08:00

memandangkan raya-raya ni menderu-deru orang mintak resepi kek batik dari gua (the only kek yang gua rela buat from scratch), dengan rajinnya gua kasi le korang resepinya. tak larat gua nak menekan keypad talipon antar resepi.

bahan-bahan

1. biskut marie (perisa suka hati le tapi gua suka perisa original sebab tak muak sangat)

2. serbuk koko (dari tin koko yang bersaiz medium)

3. susu pekat manis dari tin bersaiz medium (ikut suka cap apa pun, tapi gua selalu belasah f&n)

4. 250gm butter (pun ikut suka cap apa tapi gua prefer buttercup - sebab nama powerpuff girl)

5. kekacang atau choco rice utk hiasan

cara-cara membuatnya

cairkan butter dalam kuali yang agak-agak korang senang nak mengacaunya nanti. api mesti mau slow beb, kalau tak dia cepat hangus. masukkan susu, tambah air sikit dan kacau lagi. lepas sebati, masukkan cocoa powder. kalau tak suka pahit, letak jangan banyak tapi gua punya style, gua suka biar dia bitter sikit sebab susu tu dah kasi dia manis. lagipun gua suka dark chocolate jadinya jangan diikut sangat selera gua ni. kalau korang suka kek ni moist sikit, jangan masak coklat ni terlalu lama sebab kalau dia dah jadi thick, kek ni akan jadi a bit dry. so, bila koko tu dah sebati dan menggelegak, kowang dah boleh dah masukkan biskut marie dan gaul sampai sebati. bila semua biskut tu dah kena dengan coklat tu, kowang kasi angkat masukkan dalam tray kek tu. tekan tekan sikit untuk kasi compact. tabur benda hiasan tu dan biarkan menyejuk kalau taknak lidah melecur. tu je resepinya. sebelum masak jangan lupa baca Bismillah dan bila dah masak, antar le sikit ke jalan 17/2 ek? :)

She said: "Cendawan busut tu sedap buat gulai"

2008-10-04T10:54:00.001+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri! Maaf Zahir Batin...

this year raya is very very amazing. we went back to our kampung since monday and helped our uwan maya with her rendang and lemang. hey, now i know how to masak lemang okay! next thing i want to learn from my uwan is how to make a very good tapai pulut which is my favorite! she's a pro, i kid you not! the weather is good for the whole week so far. bekalan air pun adaaa je so far (if not, my kampung is well known for not having water supply everytime this festive season came). so i can say that this raya is very very happening except...papito and timah demam. flu and all sampai first raya tu kami tak kemana-mana cuma ziarah kubur (almost 7 kubur now weh kena ziarah!) dengan ziarah rumah makcik yang dekat-dekat area situ jugak. wah wah, our niece and nephew sekarang sudah makin besar. and this is my first raya as working adult and no more duit raya ;~(

2nd syawal, we went to our papito's kampung. so on the way there, there's one car ahead of us. his signal light keep blinking from seremban to pedas. can you believe it? its annoying, for God sake! i just cant believe how careless the driver is! it made ija cursing all the way (because she have to drive in full alert in case the driver really want to turn left, haha!). sampai kampung pun same stories. everyone is amazed with how much we grew. mana tak, jumpa setahun sekali memang la surprise surpriseee!

everyone knew about what happening at Singapore GP last weekend? the incident with Massa at the pit stop is one of the funniest thing that i ever saw. what makes it more funny is when the suppose-to-be-automatic fuel rig stuck and take what felt like a minute to get it off. ferrari supporters for sure felt totally devastated with what happening there. what made it worst was when kimi crash into the wall and drown the whole winning dream for sure. but i like this race because it has lot of crash and fire sparks because of the bad bad track. hahah! hey, thats what we're waiting for right? crash and lot of crash! if possible, mass crash like what happen with ruben and ralf back in australia gp. or like what happen with alonso and hamilton baCk in japan gp. phew! puas hati brader!

He said: "No more loud music"

2008-09-26T21:06:00.003+08:00

everyone needs to be somebody
everyone needs to find someone who cares
but i don't know if you know what i mean
'cause i'm never on your list

finally i finished developing the transparency rendering. i felt relieved after months of drowning in it, eating it, breathing it, sleeping it (i'm a work junkie to be honest). now, this is a good time to move on to another thing. its more like a gift for me especially with Hari Raya Aidilfitri is just around the corner. and yes to reward myself, i took a week off from work, yeay! errr...just to come back with a whole new work loads? ahaha!

have you read the zahir by paulo coelho? i'm reading it now. frigging love the chapters that i've read and i hope the rest of the chapters are also captivating as those.the zahir is a story about a famous author (more like a celebrity) discovered that his wife, a war respondent has dissapeared, leaving him without a trace. without a clue, with so many conundrums that he also wonder what are the answers. it made me wonder is there such a pair of humans who shared their hearts and souls but in the same time make space and freedom for each other. if there are, will it end up like the author and his wife? what a paranoid thinking.

i dont really pay attention to details which made me always missed out important things especially people's birthdays. but hey, i just cant believe that this friend of mine (which i havent met for such a long time) who called me few days earlier than my real birthdate just to wish me a very happy birthday. rupa-rupanya salah date. tapi takpe, thanks nisa, you made my day. hehe!

tonight, my sister and i will go back for our week off. this is my first time driving with her so late at night. i wonder what does it feel. and tomorrow is Singapore Grand Prix qualification race...

restoran puteri dan beryls

2008-09-18T10:14:00.004+08:00

ever heard of restoran puteri? phhht! that place sucks a lot. for rm45 ramadan buffet, you get those lauk you can buy at any param, nothing special. choice of dessert that were so limited (some of them tasteless) and yeah, i recommend you not to go there. hahaha! tapi nasib baik pegi dengan collegues gua yang best-best. terubat juga kedukaan itu!

ok tutup cerita restoran puteri ni! smalam, gua bangun-bangun tido je tengok air takde. damn! memang cilake. dah la smalam cuti. dah la air dalam tangki pun takde. memang sakit hati. gua pulak belasah tido sampai pukul 2. call ija, tengok tengok dia ada kat faculty dia tengah buang masa download video-video super junior dia. apa lagi, gua kerah la dia suruh amik gua bawak pegi equinne sebab gua dah tak tahan pening kepala tido. takkan gua nak tido sampai air ada kan? so smalam, akhirnya gua sampai juga ke equinne park. rumah ija boleh dikatakan lebih berprestige dari rumah gua. tapi takpe. takde hal punya.

lepas mandi-mandi, layan cerita waterboy(bulan bulan puasa ni boleh pulak layan cerita macam tu ye?) sekejap then member ija kata beryls bukak dia punya chocolate shop hari tu. kitowang memang gila coklat beryls apa lagi, bergegas le masing-masing bersiap. beryls ada buat raya sale sampai 29hb. baik korang pegi, kalau tak memang rugi. price dia memang tak bley challenge mana-mana tempat le. dah tentu kilang dia kat situ. dekat nak seratus lebih juga rabak beli coklat untuk raya dan perut masing-masing. bukak puasa kang gua nak makan coklat je. tak payah makan nasik sudah! lepas shopping coklat, untuk bukak puasa, gua pegi belasah makan pizza hut. gua dari aritu aritu lagi teringin nak makan pizza hut sambil mengepau azhan. aha! ija makan sampai bersila kat lantai pizza. gua kontrol je. heheh! apa pun thanks azhan sebab banje i dan piranha eh adik i makan smalam ye? esok esok boleh blanja lagi ye?

esok gua balik seremban. apa TMJ nak kata kata la. dia takde kampung, memang le dia bley cakap gitu. huh!

farewell parteee!

2008-09-12T10:08:00.004+08:00

this are photos from a farewell party held by our division for the interns few weeks ago. just a small one when everyone is looking up to eat domino's pizza. :)

tom was gave out some small speech.

the team minus louis which in germany attending some sort of conference.

the treats!!

sapa tak hafal doa qunut?

2008-09-01T06:23:00.006+08:00

Ramadan datang lagi. and it feel so good to be home sweet home on the first day of Ramadan this year. what makes it moooooore good is today is public holiday! tralalalala :) apa pun, balik kampung is my weekend routine. muktamad. its just seronok wei dapat lepak ngan mak apak bual bual ngarut, dok depan tv watching 2 days 1 night or sponge or cider on kbs with my crazy sisters dengan makan gulai lomak waktu tengah hari...sapa tak mau? hari hari pun mau!

some people says that this habit can only be associated with anak emak. well, i'm not...eh, obviously i am la kan? but thats not what i mean with anak emak here. i'm not the type of daughter yang manja nak mampus dengan parent gua. gua biasa-biasa je. cuma gua rasa, for the time being gua lebih selesa spent weekend dengan family gua. bila ada event yang gua rasa harus hadir je gua tak balik kampung. tapi semalam zuraini ajak cuci rumah pun gua balik kampung juga, apa kes? ala, bukan selalu gua buat-buat lupa bila zuraini mintak tolong kan? agak-agak zuraini marah? :) zuraini ni pun sekarang dah pandai report-report ye?

eh, i've received my official photo of convocation day and i must say i look damn excited in those photos. i am! i almost forget to breath with those excitedness! but still, there's no trace of alif envelop! memang nak kena budak ni.

i've been listening a lot to old richard ashcroft lately. i just felt that his songs suit the current weather mood. evening rain. chilling night. hungry stomach. tobacco stench. and the transparency codes that i'm working on for almost 2 months already. its not easy to be a good software developer, eh? especially when you're dealing with stuff that you have no idea that you will be working with after years spent at uni familiarizing yourself with information system. but digital cad? graphical software? Lord! hey, i'm not blaming my destiny, alright. i love my job, i love my work place and my colleagues. i love this whole experience but i wish i could speed up my brain so that i dont stuck with this module forever. Amin!

p/s: to my sisters, wei bulan baik ni baik kowang rentikan tengok music bank la wei! nipis wei nipis!

how far would you go after a heartbreak?

2008-08-24T17:05:00.004+08:00

there’s nothing wrong with the blueberry pie, just people make other choices. You can’t blame the blueberry pie, it’s just… no one wants it.

during the one night stay in malacca for my convocation day, i spent some hours savoring the movie "my blueberry night". its true that it is not as good as chunking express (one of the faye wong's song from that movie still echoed in my ears till today). and honestly, the only thing that i really like in the film other than the soundtrack was, the cinematography where the shoots are always in the night mood with lots of neon colors lights and wet roads. i have always love those kind of scenes.

the story is about one lonely woman, Elizabeth as she casts off the shadows of her prior life (and lover) and looks for redemption and rebirth along the byways and backwaters of the US. Elizabeth stumbles into the NY café run by bubbly Brit Jeremy. looking for a sympathetic voice, and maybe a slice of pie, the two strike up a curious friendship.

one night, Elizabeth up and leaves, running off to Memphis to escape her ever-present heartache. there, she finds an alcoholic policeman named Arnie who refuses to give up on his cheating wife, Sue Lynn. sadly, their feelings can’t transcend a relationship in freefall and a couple in deep denial.

later, our heroine finds herself in Reno, working in a casino and befriending a lying young card sharp named Leslie. when a poker game goes sour, both girls head to Vegas to connect with Leslie’s dad. what they discover there has Elizabeth wondering about who she is, where she’s comes from, and those “Blueberry Nights” with Jeremy.

funny hat day!

2008-08-16T01:24:00.005+08:00

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

and yes, i will be 25 this coming september and my life turn out as expected. finished my study at 24 (a bit late but who cares?). landed on a job that i love doing it, surrounded with great colleagues and understanding bosses. but yes, nothing can beat the fun during my poly and uni years. i have been reminded all the time by a lot of people about it. you will missed the memories a lot. and, yes i am!!!

last sunday was the day i get to wear those blue robe and that funny hat. i couldn't really tell what i felt. nothing special about wearing those weird attire because whats matter, i could meet all of my classmates and uni mates and see what they became after months of not seeing each other! some turned out with new car, new marital status, new job but hell, we're all happy on that day. and that's matter.

and what made me more happier is that i could spend a night together with my ex housemates, syaz and nana. we rent on a hotel room somewhere in the middle of the town and have fun all night. i even ride on those ferris wheel near the river bank and ate hell lot of satay celup. too bad salma not there to celebrate the reunion. till then, i will update more photos once i get the whole bunch from my official photographer, dak alip boom. and to all my friends out there who just had their convocation day... congratulation buddy!

hari ni gua cuti!

2008-08-04T08:32:00.002+08:00

finally, i get the chance to update this blog of mine after ignoring it for what felt like a long long time. its not that i have a lot to say now but yes, today i felt like writing something that wasnt in c++ language (which is currently is my favorite language :P )

i'm taking a day leave today since i need to go to malacca to pick my graduation robes as well as some other stuff. correct, i'm graduating this coming sunday the 10th! if you're free all along this week, make your way to mitc malacca to check out the typical-nothing-extraordinary convocation festival that is held there. actually, this is kind of my first convocation ceremony since i passed those ceremony when i finished my study at polytechnic. why? because i hate the condition they put me and my friend after we finished our study there. gua mogok! we were left clueless, not knowing either we can further our study after that and in which level. i had to waste one year slacking around before continue my degree. what a waste of time. but still, those period in kuantan were still the best, regardless what jay said! haha!

my sister timah will be seating for her first paper in pmr trial this morning. all the best to you sis. i know you have your own way to achieve what you want. i still remember during those pmr year of mine. beside struggling for it with hafiza, we still manage to steal some good time going to gigs and all. and on my english oral test, i skipped school and end up with 'tidak hadir' remark on the certificate. haha!

okay, gua nak gerak sudah... nanti sambung lain!

sony vaio hunt!

2008-07-13T03:37:00.000+08:00

Bird's eyes view..

2008-06-19T21:01:00.001+08:00

New hobby..

2008-06-15T20:25:00.002+08:00

Im never good at sewing. But for this plush stuff... I totally cant resist! Already finished my first box with the help of Ms.Rumet ;) and now working on the next box, burger set. I already found the sewing tune and concentration. I'm looking forward to sew more plush myself in the future. Probably after this last box, I will try to design it myself. Yeah, just to kill some time...

food poisoning?!

2008-06-01T01:21:00.002+08:00

sial! dah lama gua tak kena. adakah akibat ketamakkan gua di malam jumaat itu? atau memang Tuhan nak tunjuk ada banyak benda tak betul dalam perut gua? jumaat lepas, pagi-pagi lagi gua dah terbaring longlai apa pun tak boleh buat. gua jerit adik gua kat talipon suruh cepat-cepat bawak gua pegi klinik. gua kalau sakit memang sengal sikit. masuk keje pun tak. sib baik sempat inform opismet yang gua tumpang hari-hari. kalau tak sia-sia dia datang amik gua pagi jumaat tu. balik seremban terus. orang sakit mesti dapat sentuhan ibu baru boleh baik. makan masakan ibu, tu ubat. tengok muka mereka, tu penawar. baik ke tak? ada la beransur sikit. esok gua nak pegi kenduri kahwin, takkan tiba-tiba cancel? mana boleh!

Je t'aime et voilà

2008-05-17T23:49:00.002+08:00

i've been conducting unofficial survey towards few of my ex-uni mates that has been out of touch since we finished our bachelor degree few months back (no ym messages, no sms, no news...at all). out of 15 text messages that has been sent, only 5 did replied. and what does this mean? i have few assumptions that i thought relevant after taking note the time, financial and some other factors:

1. probably its still too early in the morning for a chained text message activity
2. its in the middle of month and they're run out of mobile credit
3. i'm just an ordinary-not-too-close ex- uni mate so they didn't really feel bothered to reply the message.

haha! ni la dia orang takde keje cari keje. eh apasal gua tak dapat slip result exam semester paling akhir gua ha? adakah gua ada hutang dengan uni? warggghh!! why!

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2008-05-17T19:59:00.002+08:00

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DEP

2008-05-15T12:57:00.002+08:00

You’ve burned your hometown
Keep your feet off the ground
You left your old pal
And it makes you feel well
Makes you feel well…

i lost the tape. i dont have the mp3s. i almost had them forgotten from my memory. until this one come.

its not good

2008-05-12T11:04:00.002+08:00

i felt like having sand in my mouth now for sometimes my mouth is faster than my brain. i know its a sign this should be stopped. i regret it so much i did it. maybe we should keep some distance now before i started to have the feeling like having rock in my mouth. my bad my bad...

An evening..

2008-05-10T18:37:00.002+08:00

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Get away...

2008-05-10T10:17:00.002+08:00

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K!

2008-05-09T13:35:00.001+08:00

The boss and the rest of his back up singers!

its friday already...

2008-05-09T08:56:00.004+08:00

Now you've learned

To dream a little smaller

Now you believe

That your heart is growing older

"are you humming that paris hilton's song?" asked a friend while i was actually humming parkova by tiger baby. hehe! so paiseh! how can it be mistaken with that damn hilton's song? maybe i should practise my humming a little bit more so this kind of polymorphism will not happen again. by the way, tiger baby is all over my playlist now. thanks to nazir for introducing me to them. it make the hell out of my day. such a catchy tunes for a day full of programming things and documenting. sometimes i think i'm tapping the keyboard according to the melody of their song. that beating stuff.

a colleague left yesterday. she wants to pursue her phd at swiss and i'm wishing her good luck. hope she come back after finish it all. such a pleasure to have her around. and for her farewell party, we went to k together with the whole development team. :) i never been to k before and i thought that was among the last place i want to be. what do you think? i dont have good voice and far from it, high confidence level. but the food was great and i got sugar high from the ice cream and even sang to some taiwanese songs (of course all i did was sang the part with english lyrics)! they're all so sporting (i mean the team i'm in), even our manager did some vocal on few songs. we have so much fun and sad in the same time for the empty desk we're going to confront tomorrow. :(

i'm not going back to seremban this weekend. i have not decide any plan yet but there're few to be choose. zura invited me to her place and ija is also asking if i want to join her in hunting some korean's stuff or spent the day finishing all the books. considering these three options, i seriously doubt i want to spend the day as the bookworm and hunting korean's stuff also not my thing. probably i will go to zura's place. :) and yes, french film anyone?

p/s: change the blog's url and found out the previous one is belong to some dirty webby already!

congratulation haslinda

2008-04-13T11:18:00.003+08:00

sekarang ni tetiap petang hujan. dekat opis gua, hujan petang membawa makna yang balik kang jam la jalanraya. tapi gua takde la peduli sangat umah gua ngan colleague yang gua hari-hari pool car ngan dia tu takde la jauh mana dari opis. dalam seploh minit sampai la sebab jalan kat depan phileo tu je yang congested sangat, heh! sebab opis division gua memengadap sprint highway ngan jalan damansara tu, dah dekat nak balik tu ada jela sesapa yang dok kat tepi tingkap jadi traffic reporter untuk report sesuai ke tak nak balik, termasuk le gua.

eh sabtu lepas, ada sorang lagi kawan gua yang bertunang. gua tumpang menyengih jugak kat majlis dia tu. gua sanggup tak balik seremban sebab nak datang majlis dia beb. sanggup naik lrt tukar lrt dengan pakai baju kurung kain sempit (bukti baju kurung beli tak sesedap baju kurung tempah). maklum le, teman sepermainan time kat poly dulu. kalau takde minah ni, gua rasa susah jugak kut.
yang best, gua dapat follow proses mengandam dia dari awal sampai abis walaupun gua naik pening tengok muka dia kejap-kejap transform. susah juga nak jadi cantik. kang kalau tak mekap apa pulak pandangan masyarakat. ada tak orang bertunang rilek-rilek je pakai track suit atau baju kelawar? ah, takde kut? zaman skarang ni tunang pun dah jadi acara penting beb. yang penting, pagi tu gua sempat bedal nasik lemak sedap kat umah zura. lama betul tak jumpa mak apak dia.

ok..ok, ni paling last skali!

2008-04-12T22:26:00.001+08:00

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already in pj!

2008-04-04T11:36:00.003+08:00

so i've settled down in PJ last monday. i felt so thankful for having a nice roommate (so far), quite cosy room (even though all i have is just a mattress, little wardrobe and 5 trays of plastic drawer) and the location of my office which is not really so far from the house (the taxi charge is only rm3.10 to go there). however, i still need to figure out how to get economy with my spending on the lunch (its damn expensive!). perhaps i should start cooking for it next week...great!

my flight from amsterdam was good even though we need to rush a bit for the transit hour was so limited. i dont really feel the long hour on plane since all i did was hibernate as much as i can. i didnt really suffer the so-called jetlag eventhough i almost never recover from the jetlag while im in belgie. the experience of almost 3 months waking up in the middle of the night with eyes wide open without anything to do was such a worst experience though. hehe!

ok enough about my previous trip. skang bukak buku baru. new life, new job, new colleagues...all at one time. gile la!

eau de cologne!

2008-04-01T08:35:00.012+08:00

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mooi amsterdam!

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yeah, how's the feeling syik?

2008-03-28T22:43:00.008+08:00

this is going to be my last post in belgium. i will update this blog as soon as i'm in malaysia.

actually i am not sure how am i supposed to feel. i always have mixed feeling towards everything (typical libra, i guess). part of me happy..part of me anxious to know what's been happening back home while i'm away. man, this is the first time i am so far away from home i couldn't get to taste my mum's cooking for a long long time.

but leaving behind the great colleagues that i have here is also make me sad. i almost drop my tears when i saw balloon and some party ornaments being hang at our desks this morning. my product manager, lieve (the picture above) told us that the party ornaments describe the joy they have while having us here and the balloon is in the shape of tear because they feel sad of us leaving the office soon. hah!

this evening, we will have some little party or people at my office called it materialise cafe. some sort of get together, to know each other some more beside stuff related to work. and the speacial thing about materialise cafe this evening is, all the food is prepared by us, the malaysian developer team. sounds great, yes? hahah! gosh! time fly so fast! and malaysia, i will fly coming back to you tomorrow!!!

Akibat melangok...

2008-03-16T06:39:00.001+08:00

Mak gua konpem gelakkan gua dgn melihat gambr di atas. Sial, tapak kaki gua jd kecut mcm asam keping skang ni..semua sebab last weekend trip gua tadi..adakah sbb dia last maka dia jadi begini? Bole tahan penangan tempat terciptanya air kolon ni!

greening meadow..

2008-03-15T14:42:00.001+08:00

Im so bored along the journey but luckily my phone can do some magic..

Ahha!

2008-03-15T14:24:00.000+08:00

my last weekend trip..

la paris - derniere partie

2008-03-14T23:49:00.008+08:00

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tahniah gerb!

2008-03-13T19:56:00.002+08:00

gua kagum dengan semangat minah ni. walaupun gua punya spm hampeh, tapi dia taknak pun terpengaruh ngan kehampehan gua...sebaliknya dia terus je strive untuk lawan balik. skarang dia dah lawan tokey besar dalam rumah tu (bukan gua jugak). dan gua harap dia akan terus maju untuk terus menyelamatkan dan membangunkan legasi the sams. ye la...kalau dia maju, nanti gua jugak untung. boss-boss besar kat umah pun takde le terkilan sangat dengan investment yang dah di buat bertahun-tahun.

ok gerb, skarang lu bakar junior-junior lain kat rumah tu. kasi berapi sikit diorang pulun study. jangan asek main penster je. jangan kasi graf the sams turun. nanti gua kasi lu upah.

welcome to the new malaysia!

2008-03-09T07:23:00.002+08:00

personally, i am not sure about my political stands. there are things that i like about the current government and there are some other things that i dont really sure i like it or not especially with the rocket-high cost of living in malaysia nowadays. but whatever it is i like what kickdefella said...welcome to the new malaysia. lets give it a try and see things from different perspective. and i hope we, people get what we've been promised...

p/s: dammit, i was having fun all day in amsterdam when my sister sent an sms telling about critical situation in few states. potong betul, terus rasa nak bergossip!

la paris de nuit - i just want to....

2008-03-07T06:55:00.006+08:00

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la paris - journee un

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paris : introduction

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la paris... coming soon!

2008-03-04T15:45:00.000+08:00

ghent part II

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ghent part 1

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la la la la la...

2008-02-21T06:32:00.000+08:00

antwerp part II

2008-02-20T15:58:00.014+08:00

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wendy and...

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antwerp plak...

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The ticket to success?

2008-02-13T03:21:00.000+08:00

This my flight ticket to Belgium..my first plane ticket..

gegambar lain...(updated)

2008-02-06T15:46:00.002+08:00

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update le poittt

2008-02-05T20:14:00.000+08:00

pergh! lama betul gua x berkesempatan nak update blog ni. sebuk sangat ke? of course la sibuk...nama pun keje. idea nak menghapdet blog pun x berapa nak ada kalau kepala otak asek pikir camne nak solve error yang beratur panjang lepas debug codes. tapi apa pun, Alhamdulillah gua dah hampir sebulan kat leuven ni. progress pun ada nampak sebab dah pandai guna call stack ngan breakpoint untuk watch flow program. tapi memang la mfc ni susah. hingatkan lepas project bengkel 1 kat utem dulu gua takkan jumpa bebenda mfc ni lagi. skali keje memang kena bergelumang ngan c++. sapa sangka.

this week mungkin akan ada test untuk uji how far the progress we had achieved. cuak sial gua dengar natang2 test ni. tapi nak wat camne...bersedia je le. maybe diowang nak tengok group gua ni bersedia ke tak untuk develop their software. yang lain mungkin le, tapi gua ni ada masalah sket kalau part2 test ni. haha! harap-harap doakan le gua. dan harap-harap x susah la.

oh yek, gua da jumpa orang malaysia kat belgium ni selain dari collegue gua, yay! last weekend gua sempat makan nasik lemak lagi kat umah salah sowang dr mereka. kak hani namanya. she's one of the people from malaysian embassy. gua terserempak ngan dia time tengah jalan2 kat grand place, brussel 2 minggu lepas. terus dia ajak makan nasik lemak kat umah dia last week. selain dr dia, ada 2 orang student uum yang tengah wat industrial training kat wco dan juga sowang lagi orang yang keje kat embassy gak. tapi gile gempak orang 2 orang tu...wat practical kat oversea kan?

and last week jugak, gua ngan collegue yang lain sempat g atomium lepas lepak makan nasik lemak kat umah kak hani. bajet nak pegi mini europe tapi tempat tu tutp sampai bulan march. takde maknanya la gua nak tunggu sampai march. banyak lagi tempat lain leh pegi.

atomium...apa nak citer pasal tempat tu ek? nothing much to see la sebab exhibition yang ada time tu pelik gile. ada kerusi2 patah la...kitchen kabinet la...yang di design oleh designer atomium tu la. tapi gua rasa tu la 1st time gua naik esculator yang tinggi giler macam dalam spaceship. gang dah ada ni...macam2 la plan nak berjalan. bulan february ni tiap2 minggu ada plan. harap2 semua menjadi la.